At 14, it was no “Gift from God”, Trust Me
http://www.dailykos.com/story/2012/10/24/1149525/-At-14-it-was-no-Gift-from-God-Trust-MeMy father, his brother, and their father raped and sexually abused all of the girls of my generation. My father saw it as his mission to train me in my job as a woman – to sexually please men. I could go into details about the abuse, but that’s not the point of this post. (I spent my early 20s in intense therapy, up to three times a week, and I can say that PTSD is not a life-sentence.) At age 14 my father impregnated me. I can’t tell you whether it was “forcible rape” or not because while I fought many times, sometimes I just lay there crying. Sometimes I was distracting him from my sister, who seemed more fragile than I; sometimes his threat to ruin something I loved was credible enough that I didn't fight; sometimes I was in too much pain to fight. But it was always rape.
Perhaps my “magical lady parts” hadn’t yet learned the whole “shut it down” trick; perhaps I lived in the real world and not in fantasy land. But in no world and at no time was that fetus a gift from God.
Fortunately for me, my father was only crazy in one way. He liked to have sex with minor girls; he didn’t want them to give birth. He took me to the “abortionist” – my mother had her own insanity and I was clueless about how my cycle was supposed to work – so he realized I was late, he took me to the doctor, he chose not to pay for anesthesia. Lucky me.
Anyway, that God (should s/he exist) allows evil to happen is unquestionable. That does not make it his/her intent – if you accept that God created free will. If you don’t accept free will then I guess that if I go out and castrate every guy with a glint in his eye that I don’t like that would be God’s gift as well.......
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her 8 siblings were all adoptees, and they were all molested and beaten repeatedly by the stepfather (both the boys and the girls) while the stepmother did nothing. Among other atrocities, she was required to give the stepfather a blowjob each morning before she went off to elementary school. 
Most of her siblings grew up to be alcoholics and drug addicts who died early. She ran away from home at 15 or 16, and found a Christian group home that thankfully did not have a man who thought he was ordained to screw or abuse everyone around him.
Strangely enough, I grew up in a dysfunctional family with a depressed mother and alcoholic father, and I remember a couple of times when I was a young teen that my father was 'acting funny' or 'looking at me funny,' and of course now I wonder if he had had those urges and only barely restrained himself from acting on them. He was certainly patriarchal, but not in a religious way. I have been supremely sensitive to that sort of craziness since childhood, which has saved me a couple of times from encounters with strange men that could have been fatal.
There are lots of us who have suffered tangentially and/or directly from patriarchal shit, and that is why we are always in attack mode when we hear this stuff. It strikes directly to our experience and to our empathy with other victims.
Thank you for opening up. I can't believe some men (and apparently some women) are as fucked up as they are. I thought these people would be considered unelectable, but I guess no more. We need to change that fast.
You are a very strong person. 
Know that many people sent you good thoughts and wish you all the best for the future. You are loved and cherished by many many DU'ers. 
I was raped at 16 and date raped by my then-boyfriend at 19.
It has made me who I am (strong, fearless) but not without a lot of misery and burned bridges along the way. 
boys and girls. The old man did go to prison for a while, same attitude.
I hope you find peace in your life. Bless you.
...until proven otherwise. 
