I'm really bummed
It looks like I'll be working all weekend. I have a major meeting on Tuesday, for which I have a presentation to do. I have about 10 slides done. It'll probably be around 50 slides, altogether and will last close to an hour. I'm not worried about that.
It's just that I'll be trapped in the house doing that this weekend. But at least it'll keep my busy and not dwelling on recent events.
I'm just really down right now. I am so not looking forward to the holidays. Yes, I get to see my family, but my ex was supposed to be there with me and now he's gone. There's just nothing to look forward to. I miss him and wonder what I did wrong and how am I supposed to let anyone else in after this. I have a very hard time getting close to people. I couldn't get past my reserve, even with him and that's probably why he broke up with me.
I just don't understand why I can't connect with people. I just can't, no matter how hard I try.
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your friends at DU are here 24/7 for you. I have some of that same problem - connecting with people. Maybe we both just march to beat of a different drummer? But when I am feeling like the last person on earth, I come here where I suddenly feel like part of the whole and find being around like-minded people picks me up. You do have friends here - visit often. 
