I'm still alive.

[Locut0s]

Sorry if I haven't been posting recently. I have been in a dark place emotionally these past few weeks and didn't feel I should post about my issues given how much I've said in the past and how little progress I've made. But I wanted to assure people I'm still alive, even if I don't feel like I am or want to be (don't worry I'm not going there). I probably won't be posting much until I feel a bit better, if that ever comes to pass, just wanted to let anyone who might be worried know that I'm still trudging along.

OH and PS thank you to those anonymous people who gave me valentines hearts!!!! It means a lot!

[TexasTowelie]

1. Thanks for checking in.

[orleans]

2. glad to know you're still alive.

i am too.

don't know what these issues are you refer to but i'm familiar with emotionally dark places.

wishing you well. and sending you love. take care.

[fizzgig]

3. i was thinking about you today

sorry things aren't going well right now, just keep on as best you can and be good to yourself.

[applegrove]

4. What you hate most about yourself

as a young adult is what brings you character as you age. There is a flip side to our abilities and disabilities. And getting to know all of that is a rewarding journey once you are on it. I stopped growing as a person in my teens and early adulthood. I started to grow again at twenty five. It was a wonderful time in my life. I challenged myself. I tried things out. I had ‘wide open spaces, room to learn from my mistakes, and new faces‘ as the Dixie Chicks sing. Then when I was 30 I realized the worst kind of people were in my life. I was strong enough to figure it all out and make it because I had those 5 years of growth and good friendsips and laughter and love. So I knew how great life can be once the relationship you have with yourself is yours again. I knew I would thrive again one day. And slowly I got back the power of one. And I know I‘m little in the grand scheme of things but we can all be mighty mites in our own lives. I would take an aptitude test and begin to suss out your strengths and weaknesses and find out about others like you. Reading biographies helps too. Good luck. You‘ll have more good times because you have had bad times right now. And the journey will be its own reward. But absolutely it hurts to accept there are areas you need to work on.

[bluesbassman]

5. Great to hear from you Locut0s!

Putting one foot in front of the other keeps you moving forward. You will make it.

[urbuddha]

6. Wishing you all of the very best.

“If we think only of ourselves, forget about other people, then our minds occupy very small area. Inside that small area, even tiny problem appears very big. But the moment you develop a sense of concern for others, you realize that, just like ourselves, they also want happiness; they also want satisfaction. When you have this sense of concern, your mind automatically widens. At this point, your own problems, even big problems, will not be so significant. The result? Big increase in peace of mind. So, if you think only of yourself, only your own happiness, the result is actually less happiness. You get more anxiety, more fear.”
― His Holiness the Dalai Lama XIV,

[Tobin S.]

7. Don't get too wrapped up in that dark place.

Seek help if you need it.

When something is going wrong in my life, I get obsessed with it and it takes over my state of mind. That happened to me recently with a situation at work. Luckily, things worked out for me with someone's unexpected help. But if that had not happened, I would have had to do something about it pretty soon.

It's easy to get stagnant emotionally when problems arise, and it can be impossible not to when you are battling depression without outside help. You have to keep moving, and sometimes you have to reach out for help so someone can pull you out of the muck.

[Hoyt]

8. Check in when you can. I have been wondering if you were Ok.

[eShirl]

9. I can relate!

[Crewleader]

10. Love your avatar LocutOs and enjoying the Movies Group

[flying rabbit]

11. Fight the good fight Locut0s

Things will get better.

[dawg]

12. Great to hear from you Locut0s!

Hope you feel better soon.

Try to do something fun every day. Fun is very underrated.

[In_The_Wind]

13. I missed you!

Mr ITW was asking about you recently.

[Phentex]

14. It's good to hear from you...

I'm glad you checked in!

I hope you keep working on yourself. You have so much life ahead of you and I want you to be happy.