Am I being unfair?

[La Lioness Priyanka]

So Lisa and I have been engaged for a while. Our plans were to have a wedding at some point in 2009, after I graduate. With the new ruling in CA, we could fly over and get married in CA. This marriage would then be honored in NYC. Lisa really wants this.

However, I don't really want to do this. I mean if by next year, our parents still dont want to finance our wedding, and I am still so busy that I haven't been able to find a dress, I will fly to SF and get married.

But quite honestly just because I am gay doesn't mean I shouldn't be able to have a wedding. I dont want to get used to the idea, that I will always be second-best in the world.

Quite frankly right now, I don't have time to get a haircut let alone a bloody wedding.

So am I being unfair to Lisa because I dont want to hop on a plane and have get a quickie wedding in SF?

on edit: I really want to marry lisa. She isnt forcing me into a marriage. Our argument is more around the need for a wedding/ceremony.