Reply #39: I used to be afraid of God ( back when I thought God did not exist)

[More Than A Feeling]

Perhaps I had better explain. I was afraid of the stereotype of God that I had. The kind of God who would bless the crusades and dropkick me into hell if i put one foot wrong. I could not abide that kind of authoriatarianism, so I chose not to believe. In fact, it made me a very militant atheist.

Actually reading the Bible caused me to reassess my ideas about God. If I were to describe myself as "God fearing", I would probably mean that I was in awe of him/her/it, but that is not how I think of God normally.