Ever have a delayed reaction to something

[Haole Girl]

extremely hurtful someone does and then
just
completely
want to lose it...
I mean...in a big
fucking
grandiose
kinda
way...huh?

[reyd reid reed]

1. Uh huh.

Resist.

:hi:

[Haole Girl]

2. I.am.trying

thanks

[reyd reid reed]

3. Deep breaths.

C'mon. One. Two. Three.

Trust me on this...the scope of the gesture does absolutely nothing to counter the initial hurt. I've had delayed reactions and then blown my stack -- and it didn't help at all. Didn't change anything, didn't make me feel better, didn't take a weight off. Only made me more upset and ashamed of myself and then angry.

Resist..deeeeeep breaths.

:hug:

[Haole Girl]

5. I'll tell you...

...it's difficult to keep this one to myself.

But, your words are so true. And, I know part of my altered state of awareness, at the moment, is a strange mixture of being stone cold sober and exhausted. I should have just had something to drink, tonight, and dulled my senses....

thank you. I've missed you RRR.

I shouldn't have posted. It was a mistake. I'm sorry.

:hug:

[Ptah]

4. Yes, there was that one time, that guy just would not let it go

But then I remembered.
"
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
"

[Haole Girl]

6. I love that Robert Frost poem..

:hug:

:cry:

[Ptah]

7. I had a sophomore high school teacher that insisted we knew

how important each decision would be,

I still hold that poem close.

:hi:

[Haole Girl]

8. The temptation is a little too much...

,,,I'm just sitting here..staring at my computer...weighing the consequences...

it is so very tempting.

Anger and pain are twins...identical, yet opposite.

[Ptah]

9. OK, now my spider-sense is tingling here

Is there some help I might offer?

Everyone sing along:


The man in the coon-skin cap
In the big pen
Wants eleven dollar bills
You only got ten

Maggie comes fleet foot
Face full of black soot
Talkin that the heat put
Plants in the bed but

[Haole Girl]

10. Hey..

I am fine.

I won't do anything (else) foolish.

But,if that "person" ever crosses me again...well....

well, I'll just leave it at that.

I'm going to try to go to sleep now...it is long overdue.

bye..

Thanks, Ptah...you are a dear.

I hope you've given up smoking by now. :hug: