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Taverner Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Tue Feb-15-11 02:37 PM
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Self loathing - an important part of a balanced breakfast
Nothing like self loathing to get you through the day. Receive a couple early morning whacks from management, and then let it grow. Soon, you start hashing over your entire work history and see yourself as the biggest phony, the biggest liar, a parasite that serves no good.

Then go over things you've done in the past that you feel embarrassed or shameful of. Go over everyone you ever hurt, everyone you ever lied to, every one you ever deceived.

Good...let that dark hole eat away at yourself. Make sure a minute doesn't go by where you don't replay some event in your mind where you really did something you feel shameful of.

Those thoughts are never going away, so might as well feed them and make them feel comfort in your psyche.

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MilesColtrane Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Tue Feb-15-11 02:55 PM
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1. I was just musing today how it is that I can be so selfish and solipsistic, and yet...
hate myself so much.

You're not alone.
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knowbody0 Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Tue Feb-15-11 05:21 PM
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2. doesn't do any good to deny the fuckers crawling around
in there. I generally hash it all over in the early part of my day, chew a few leaves, bong it and then thoroughly enjoy the mediocrity of my assigned duties. experiencing most all of said functions as if floating above myself.There I am able to see that bigger picture, calling upon my memory bank of joyful and ecstatic moments. It's a tapestry of yin and yang, my friends and family are all included with the mistakes and shame. It's when I get to the moment where I seek that "higher power's" role in my destiny, and what impact I've had on the living, that it gets opaque for me and I'm compelled once again to give up on understanding anything and admit that I know nothing. that's what gets me through the day. I have held a man who died in my arms, I felt his spirit energy leave its body. All that we really have is the moment we are IN.

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Manifestor_of_Light Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Wed Feb-16-11 02:27 AM
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3. Don't let their opinion of you be YOUR opinion of yourself.
If you are a good person and they say you are bad then they are wrong.

What other people think of you is NOT what you are. Some people enjoy gossiping and spreading lies and tearing others down. And they are all over the place. They will not rest until they see you defeated.

I ignore them.

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Lucian Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Wed Feb-16-11 02:38 AM
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4. At least you admit to yourself you have those "faults."
Edited on Wed Feb-16-11 02:39 AM by Lucian
Most people deny them even though we are all the same--we all have them.

Embrace who you are. Learn from the mistakes. Feel good about the accomplishments.
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siligut Donating Member (1000+ posts) Send PM | Profile | Ignore Wed Feb-16-11 06:30 AM
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5. I just see self-examination as a process
So when I fuck-up, I can tell myself I will learn from it and move forward. Socrates said it best, "An unexamined life, is not worth living."
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