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re-thinking this situation and not feeling quite able to find the real "key" to motivate others and myself too! However, I have made up my mind that I'll stick it out ONE MORE TIME!
You see, I live waaaaaay across the country from you. Down here in Jebby country, and my representative has been Cruella for 6 long years! There are days when you just want to scream and holler at the stupidity of what has happened, then you buck up and kind of "flip them off" intellectually and go back in the ring to fight!!
You know how we all say we KNOW exactly where we were and what we were doing when Kennedy got shot? How America kind of went into shock for quite some time, how the school speakers announced what happened and even if you didn't quite understand all of it until you talked with friends and parents, you just kind of knew in the pit of your stomach that it was a bad, bad thing.
Well I have a vivid memory of when I felt that kick in the pit of my stomach again, but this time I knew very quickly what a bad, bad thing it was! That night in November when all was going so well for Al Gore, the TV stations called FLORIDA FOR GORE.... I ran outside to my neighbors and hollered in her window "We Won, We Won" Al Gore got elected, it's over. Jumping up and down, whooping it up and I was giddy! After that outburst, I came back home and what I saw on my TV was The Idiot sitting up in Tallahassee with his shrewd underhanded brother and family looking like, WAIT, WAIT.... something went wrong. That puzzled look we see so often from this MORAN most of the time, and very soon the announcement by the TV stations saying "No, we are getting different information out of Florida, it seems there must be a mistake." And then it began and it's just gotten worse as each month has passed, and it still has no end! I have THAT day burned into my brain and knew even before they started counting chads that we had just been screwed.... BIG TIME!! I knew it then and have been on the outside looking in ever since. Even though I felt America was in for some heavy duty crap, who could have ever known the extent of their greed and corruption???
HOPE has become a 4-letter word for me, and TRUST is not even in my vocabulary anymore! But I haven't let go of this little branch I caught on the way down, and there are days I'm sure it will break and that will be it... but it's still holding me here. Either that or I'm a COMPLETE fool who doesn't know how to get out of the rain!!!
Now, I'm gonna call it a night, have my exercise class tomorrow and need to get some rest to make it through my routines! Sorry if I made anyone depressed, but if we had no DU or other outlets to vent I wonder what we would have done???
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