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... as I read your post: There is a particular lesson that took place in that year. You will revisit it but now from a higher perspective for final resolution. What do you feel was your lesson (looking back at it now) - the word UPHEAVAL jumped out at me when I just looked at your post - as if in large blinking letters. What's going on for you now that feels like an upheaval? Is there a shift happening for you that feels really large? And how would you look at it differently than you did in 1990?
It's my sense when things repeat, we come at it from a different perspective with lessons learned since that time a part of the new perspective. For example, I struggled with abandonment issues for a good part of my mid-teens through to present. There's someone in my life who, for the past nine years, comes and goes with no explanation. It's taken me the better part of the nine years to work through the challenges this presents me. Each time this person leaves (for a year and a half, a year, a few months), I am reminded of that abandonment thing and given an opportunity to learn how to manage that feeling. This last time, I finally "GOT" that it wasn't about me and this person liking me or not. And something that was just a concept to me (oh, it's not about you, it's about them) FINALLY came down into the physical for me. I finally managed my fears about it. Took me a while but I did it. So, each time this person left, I was given a chance to work on my issues and it finally paid off. That's kind of what I'm talking about here, BI. What issue was going on at that time might be ready for resolution now?
Hope this helped.
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