I think I've finally gone sane

[Tobin S.]

After 17 years of insanity I think I've gone sane. I don't think most people know that you can go sane once you've been insane. But sure enough, here is reality. It's depressing, liberating, and funny at the same time- not reality, but going sane. Well, I guess that could be reality, too.

I used to drink heavily, smoke heavily, and eat heavily in addition to taking psychiatric medication. I gave up smoking and drinking for my health and well being. I gave up eating heavily to be more attractive to women. Those were all crutches and when I took the last one away, the food, a funny thing happened. I became angry. Then I realized that the anger had been there all along. I was piling a bunch of crap on top of it to keep from having to acknowledge it and deal with it. Psychiatrists call it "self-medicating."

So, I'm dealing with it. No more Mr. Nice Tobin. Actually, I'm not angry at the world, and the people who I am angry at will probably never know it. Things are just going to hurt for a little while.

Thanks to everyone here who has followed my story. I'm going to continue to take meds, but I'm going to ask the doctor if I can cut down on the dosages to see what happens. Maybe one day I won't have to take that stuff anymore.

The world looks different today. I hope the change is here to stay.

[mopinko]

1. seattle?

nice place, but why seattle?

and just where is jesus trying to take the buddhists?

[Tobin S.]

4. It's as about as far away as I can get from here without leaving the country :)

And I could transfer there and still work for my current employer. There is an opening out there right now as a matter of fact.

My sig line is a joke from a poll I did in the religion/theology forum. I was actually trying to bring some sanity to that forum, but I guess I'm the wrong candidate for that. :)

[mopinko]

5. sanity is in short supply

around here, fersher. more of it in this forum than gd:p i think. ;-P
good luck with the job. seattle is a nice place.

[Odin2005]

2. Good for you!

:hug:

[elleng]

3. DEAR Tobin S!

:hug: :grouphug: :hug: