A literal nazi and criminal at the program& the problem with this

[undergroundpanther]

Ok let me explain.
Today I had to leave my prp early.I was in meltdown mode.When I got home, I was so freaked out I took a klonopin rather than cut.Jon and I curled up on my bed and he was there holding me as I shuddered, until I calmed down.
What got me upset like this is a massive failure of the prp to make it safe,the hypocrisy of my therapist and my frustration with her,and the ignorance and pettiness,and a sickening downright obliviousness to danger the staff at my prp entertain.


There is a program there for dual diagnosis(addiction+psych issues).I am not in that group but some people I care about Are in this group.
The first thing was a client who was dealing drugs at the prp.He was trying to push oxycodone on my boyfreind.I walked into the middle of my boyfreind telling the dealer to STFU and leave him alone.This client-dealer was obviously high,he told us what he was selling,and to whom.

We went right to the dual diagnosis counselor and told him what this client was doing.
The counselors immediate response was denial,ohhh____ could never deal drugs..This counselor plays favorites and the dealer/client was one of his chosen ones that can do no wrong.

Instead my boyfriend was piss tested,came up clean,meanwhile his pet has been scarce,yet the clients he supplies with drugs are still high and the counselor is in denial,or he is stupid I dunno.

A new client has come,he is court ordered,he is trying to avoid jail for bank robbery assault with a deadly weapon,he is a total psychopath.I had red flags flying, but just to be sure I talked with him.He told me about the crime,told me he was here to evade charges,he told me he threw away his gun in a drain and pretended it wasn't his,plausible deniability,anyway it gets worse,this guy is a fucking NAZI!! He is a member of aryan nation he has nazi tattoos,the ss on his neck,face and temple,spiderwebs galore(tattoo signal he is a murderer),teardrops,he told me he could get me any kind of gun and it would be untraceable or very hard to trace,he has tons of assault charges.He hates Obama,and said he should start a militia.Immediately this criminal started pouring the charm on manipulating the people I call my friends.One is an 18 yr old female,the other a 25 year old.No one this thug is manipulating is older or lower functioning.He is selecting victims and his'posse',because they are naive and can make believe this nazi is not a criminal fucktard. He is staying away I think,because I know what he is,he is busy trying to remove my peer supports,the staff have no boundaries.They want to have faith in anyone.They give me cheesy platitudes. I tried to warn the girls,they blew me off,one told me her sister knows gangs,and the bloods would be there if she made a call,then she told me about how this criminal nazi client stabbed someone to steal their drugs.
My friends do not talk to me now. As I talked to my counselor about it all
another client who is my friend was hanging by the door trying to listen,for the nazi's behalf I think...Meanwhile they chastise people for cussing,and would not let another client wear a Lynryd Synyrd t shirt because it had the union jack on it.That shirt was inappropriate..
Yet a real nazi is OK! WTF!!!??? We have black,hispanic,mixed blood clients,We have gay,bi and transgender clients.We have Jewish,pagan,and tons of other belief systems among the clients,quite a few the aryan nation would target with hate.This criminal is an ACTIVE member of a hate group!!!
http://www.adl.org/presrele/neosk_82/aryan_nations_82.asp
http://www.unitedstatesaction.com/northeast-hate-groups.htm
http://www.adl.org/hate_symbols/about.asp

I tried to tell my therapist about this guy and she just told me in a long rambling way to judge not.I told her Judging character of people is a matter of survival for me,she brushed my fears aside like I was just being hysterical,than I got upset. After I ranted for a few minutes in frustration..She chastised me for raising my voice and cussing.Totally ignoring WHY I was so upset. Than she said she got pissed off at me,and to be pissed it means she judged me,which revealed her as a hypocrite in my eyes.Her patronizing is grating on me too.
And she seems to not hear me,to be in denial,and she seems to think safety is not as important as demolishing my boundaries and learning to accept a psychopath murdering nazi as if he was just another peer.WTF!! He ain't my peer,he is a monster,a fascist,a criminal,a toxic personality,who will fuck up anyone's life, lie to avoid jail for bank robbery,abuse the state and the program to get whatever he wants.He has NO conscience,no remorse for the shit he does. Meanwhile I am losing it,I am thinking about quitting the prp.I do not feel safe there ,and I miss my friends.I am worried for them. One woman was looking for a place to move,this psychopath found her a place in 3 days with some of his "friends",and she is going to move in there.She has known this guy for a few days.He came to program last Wednesday.He has attended 5 times,already my friends are playing his game,thinking he's cool as shit. In reality, they are making themselves his victims.The psychopath behavior pattern is there in this nazi criminal's past,and it is repeating in the prp.