Sleep deprivation will really mess with your head

[Droopy]

This is a follow up to this thread ---> http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=276x7079

The night that I wrote that thread I went to work and started to feel really tired driving up there. I'm a trucker and you've just got to be alert to do the job safely. So I went into work, got my load, and drove 6 miles up to a rest area and slept like a rock for a couple of hours. I felt a little better then. Then I stopped at a truck stop and grabbed some caffeine pills and took a couple of them. I was okay for the rest of the night, stayed awake anyway, but I felt like shit. I got home and by 2 pm I was sawing logs. I slept until 10 pm and felt like a new person when I woke up.

The night with the rest area and the caffeine pills I was very depressed. I didn't want to be a trucker anymore. I hated my job. All I wanted to do was curl up with some sort of bottle of booze and forget about life.

The next night after I got the sleep everything was okay. I did my job without even thinking about the cold and the freight unloading. I just did it and enjoyed the music on the radio when I was driving. No problems.

I have got to find a way to get my sleep sorted out. A little while back I got some Ambien and was taking it at the maximum suggested dosage. It didn't do a damn thing. I took it for two weeks and then ended up throwing the rest away. They say you can develop a dependency on the stuff if you take it longer than a couple of weeks, but it didn't really matter anyway because the stuff didn't work.

Getting a new job with better hours is out of the question for me at this point. I have excellent health insurance and I just got benefits. My prescription bill went from $400 to $54 a month. I'm going to make $55,000 this year and I have a lot of debt to pay off. It simply won't happen somewhere else. I'm open to any suggestions you might have besides getting a different job. Maybe that will be a choice after I pay off a couple of loans, but it's going to take me a year to do it at my current rate- much longer elsewhere.

[GreenPartyVoter]

1. Yes it will. Destabilizes my bipolar in a real hurry.