to be with another person who also WANTS to be with you too?A person who accepts the faults ,the weird and the mind and heart as it is..a true companion?
Yeah I wish there was someone near me to come over hang out,
shoot the shit, yell at the Tv with me over stupid republican
ass hattery or get into deep discussions from mundane to cosmic..
Someone affectionate but not sexual.
Someone to be my friend.Someone with time to waste.
Someone who does not monopolize everything,obsess, control or drag me down,someone who isn't threatened in the ego to be a cheerleader who believes in me even when I can't.
Someone bold enough ,to go places I've never been to before on earth or into the unknown,to just go.
Someone not flaky,clingy,mooching,passive,yet who has a daring side,a magickalness.But has no addictions or abusive ways..An honest,deep, gentle,emotional wild person.Someone to do art with.To brainstorm and to create whatever.
Someone to do stupid shit with,like pranks on church signs walking across the road with a scarf on 'cause it's cold,holding a sign for the camera that says"I am not Bin Laden" and showing up at a store in June dressed as a purple squirrel just because we felt like doing it.
Someone willing to risk not being normal.And hang out with a freak like me,shamelessly. Someone to chase around with in the yard with a super soaker's,until exhaustion, than lay in the grass and describe the images in the clouds they see.Someone who gets choked up at sunsets,and giddy during thunderstorms.Someone who isn't a diet nazi.Someone to go to Arundel mills mall and drool over the Egyptian style of the place.Someone who knows ancient things too.Someone to feast on cheesecake with.
Someone who also gets a kick out of playing with my crazy kitties on catnip with a laser pointer,and willing to slap a moth down wards so the cats can have a tasty treat, but cries over roadkill..Someone to weight lift with so we can spot each other.
Someone smart enough to keep up with me.
Someone to give them the only thing I ever had,my true selfs.A gift I still hold within that no one seems to want,without trying to control it.Someone who doesn't give two shits about being in roles in society that most people play into.
And I also want to hold the hand inside them,and discover them so it isn't so hard to be alive day after day..
Anyone else wish for this?
I know it will not happen for me.
Not where I live.
I long for a deep friendship.
It sucks to be alone so much.