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Edited on Fri Oct-06-06 11:23 PM by OPERATIONMINDCRIME
Not really sure how to go about this. I guess I'll just go off the top of my head. Some of you here have gotten a completely wrong view of who I am or what I'm about when I post in gender slanted threads. There is probably a common feeling amongst many of you that I am against women's rights or harbor resentment towards women in general. This could not be further from the truth. I will lay the blame squarely on my shoulders, however, for having contributed to that perception. I will try my best in what follows to explain a bit more accurately about myself in relation to gender based issues. Like I said, this is coming from the top of my head to my fingers on the keyboard, so forgive me if the flow is not perfect.
I want to start at the heart of the matter: The concept of being a man. I consider that in and of itself to be one of the biggest factors in my reactions. Contrary to what some of you probably assume, I have never bought in to the whole 'masculinity' thing. In fact, I'm quite the opposite. I'm a thin as a rail 5'6" guy in case any of you were wondering, so from an appearance standpoint I have more the body of some anorexic model than I do some beer burpin slob. As far as the whole 'be a man' mentality, I've never partaken in it. Since I was a kid, I never understood why that was the way as a man I was expected to be. Maybe I have my father to thank for that, since though he loves his women, he's never acted 'macho' either. In fact he's a very kind loving man who used to love Melrose Place and Beverly Hills 90210, loved layin out in the sun, never drank, never abused my mother, and was never of the 'sports' mentality. Did love his Yankees though.
Getting back to me, I have been uncomfortable my entire life being around men who are 'proud' to be 'men', if ya know what I mean. I've never felt the need to have to do well in sports, I've never felt some false sense of superiority by thinking I'm better than a woman, cause I'm a man. I've never ogled at women considered sexy and have always in a way been disgusted at men who pick up the male magazines and actually convince themselves that's what being a man is about or that there is some type of 'bonding' that's supposed to take place by agreeing with each other that 'oh yeah, she's a hottie'. I've never engaged in the hoots and hollers and I've never partaken in the loud and obnoxious beer toasting female objectifying high fiving concept. I most certainly have never considered abusing a woman, and find those that do as the epitome of cowards. (Disclaimer: I will attest to hitting my mother as a child and being violent at times towards her, but that was in defense of the severe physical abuse she thrust upon me, and had nothing to do with her gender.)
All of those things above are considered by many to be the stereotypical actions of someone who's a man. But I've always resented that. Every one of these things above I am disgusted by. When I see men acting in those ways I get a pit in my stomach and feel embarrassed for them. Disgusted: Best way to describe it. I think that, at the heart of the matter, is what feeds my reactions at times. I think the past behaviors of some men, the idealistic glorification of macho male stereotyping crap that we get shoved down our throats on tv, in ads, and otherwise, are what drive this perception of manhood. But I think the numbers of men who are more like me then the stereotypical male type above, are actually in the majority in our country. Most men I know are truly decent and would not partake in most of the things above either. But what gets to me is that to this day merely being a man can cause all of these disgusting ideals above to be thrown into an assumptive perception within many a woman's mind. I've been friends with far more women in my lifetime then men and have been non-sexually close with a ton of them. Having been close with that many women, one of the things I've seen regularly is that to many of them, a man is a stereotypical man by default and he must prove himself otherwise to be considered a 'good guy'. I think far more could be accomplished if we were considered the same as anybody else first, and through violation of trust or action could only be viewed as a 'typical male'.
To sum up much of the mentality I'm awkwardly and probably not effectively trying to portray above, I'll provide a quick anecdote. Though I had several girlfriends prior, it was not until I was 17 that I had my first true love. It was the first time someone fell for me first without me even thinking I had a shot to begin with, or having yet even tried to win them over. I won the love of this older girl quite simply: We were standing at the bottom of my driveway and she was talking about how she's sick of men. Sick of how they screw her over, how they treat her, how they just act like men. Without even giving it much thought, and just reacting sincerely, I plainly and nonchalantly said "hey, I'm not a man. I'm just me. Damned if I want to be grouped together with those pigs". I didn't know it at the time, but that simple statement made her fall for me, I found out later.
I've always believed in that statement since that day: I'm not a man, I'm just me. I never wanted to be a 'Man', as in the connotations and actions that are supposed to go along with being one. I've always been disgusted by such concepts. But as I've grown, I've learned to realize that I am a man after all, but that maybe it's the men who abuse, belittle, objectify and act like grade schoolers, who aren't at all men. They are cowards and they are morons.
So what does all this mean? It means I felt the need to express certain things because it twists my stomach to think that I'm giving the impression I'm one of them. I can't stand them. I can't stand cowards and I can't stand those that would treat anybody else regardless of race, gender or otherwise, as anything less than equal. I'm offended by their actions and their thoughts and think they should be ashamed of themselves. But that's where it gets to me and causes me to react as I do in some of those threads. It's because I don't view those types as men. To me they are almost a lower form of life. They aren't male or female at all. They are merely selfish cowards who suffer from greed and need for power and control. They are pieces of shit in my opinion. So when I see posts that call them men, and even though many will include the disclaimer of 'some' men, I still feel associated with their dirtiness and disgusting behavior. That's why I feel those threads to be unfair in ways. Even offering up the 'some' men disclaimer still leaves many of the other men who are good men feeling as if they share in the resentment, even if they don't partake in those things themselves or even if they're equally disgusted by the behavior. Though it might not be intended, there is often a tone of anger towards men in general that is implied.
But as I've said, I don't think that's right. I respond as I do because I feel a need to stand up and say we're just people, like anyone else. We aren't men, we're just 'us'. But I must also recognize that some of my defense in those threads comes from the sheer disgust and anger at having to be associated with those that commit such things. I know I'm not alone though. I firmly believe that more men are disgusted by that behavior then there are those that partake in it. For those reasons, I've always wondered why do we have to call them men at all? Why when there are in fact so many men in this country that are just normal everyday people who respect women equally should there still not be a distinction between the piece of shit man and the regular just gettin through life treat women with respect man. I would love it if the feminist movement could start making a distinction between them. I would think that in and of itself could do wonders for women's rights discussions in respect to them not degrading into gender war. Why not take gender out of it, while leaving it in? I think it's time we stop labeling those that commit the offenses against women 'Men', and come up with something unique to call them that will make it very clear to anyone hearing it who it is in reference to. Cause to say 'men', it by default makes some men defensive because of them being inherently in the group. But if only there was some catchy new term to use instead, both men and women could focus equally on eradicating them. Because I don't think that it's a problem of 'men' vs 'women'. I think it's a battle of civilized intellect versus complete unevolved piece of shit morons. Both men and women can be of the civilized intellect, and only those that commit such things as abuse, objectification, and demeaning actions towards others would be included in the latter. So it wouldn't be a gender war anymore. It would be right vs wrong.
I know I really babbled the hell out of that paragraph, but like I said: top of my head to my fingers on the keyboard, probably coulda said it a whole lot better if planned. But the point I was trying to make was this: Isn't that what the women's rights movement comes down to? Isn't it quite simply right vs wrong? If so, is it really women vs men at all then? Cause I would think it far more accurate to call it the former. Is domestic or sexual abuse wrong? Absolutely. Do all men do it? Hell no. Is getting paid less for doing the same job wrong? Better believe it. In fact, I think it's one of the most disgraceful things in this country that in the 21st century this is still an issue. We know better than that by now. I don't know how some businesses can get away with that. Moving on, do all men think they deserve more pay? I must attest to not knowing one man who thinks they should. Is it right to dictate to a woman what she is to do with her own body, or take away her rights to decide that for herself? Fuck no it isn't. But that isn't limited to gender either. Is it appropriate that some still turn a dismissive eye towards certain forms of rape and domestic violence? Absolutely not. There should be no tolerance of such things and no bullshit excuses accepted. But these concepts are not specific to gender either.
What it all comes down to in my opinion is human decency towards others. I think everything involved with women's rights simply comes down to a quite logical right vs wrong, rather than men vs women. It comes down to a mentality of equality, tolerance, confidence, intellect, logic and integrity vs a mentality of hatred, cowardice masked by false bravado, greed, need for power and control, false entitlement and ignorance. Now I'll readily admit that there are far greater numbers of males that are guilty of the latter then are females, but there are a whole lot of males that fall within the former as well. I just wish it didn't have to be termed as men vs women. I'm disgusted by the actions of those who would violate the rights of women and would rather not be associated with them by group. I react as I do because I feel like those threads are pushing forward the premise that it is about men. Maybe I'm unique in my view of it, I don't know. But I consider it to merely be right vs completely fucking ignorantly wrong.
So I'm aware many of you may still not agree with me. But I wanted to at least explain, if not woefully inadequately, what my mentality truly is. I have always defended the rights of women and have always defended the rights of anybody. I've throughout my life on many occasions torn into men for treating women badly, and even once got the shit pummeled out of me for pulling into a parking lot after seeing a boyfriend hit his girlfriend, and attempting to restrain him from striking her again. I've never tolerated nor partaken in the 'Here's To Men!' type mentality. I think striking a woman is the most cowardly thing someone can do, I think rape is the most heinous of crimes, I think lesser pay for equal work is one of the most disgraceful things still allowed to exist in our corporate environment, and I think those that objectify women as property are disgraceful in their thoughts.
I'm sure there are many other things I've omitted here and things that you in this group are fighting towards that maybe I couldn't even begin to relate to. I'll admit that. I just simply wanted to lay my truth of person out on the table just to do so. I didn't write this for a back and forth conceptual type discussion, my desire was more just of personal honesty and openness. I hope it is received as such.
So in closing, I wish it didn't have to be termed men vs women. I wish those men that act in such disgraceful ways had a term all their own, that would catch on across the population and become the new term for describing them, without having to include the rest of a gender at the same time. But until that time, I will make a vow to do my best to avoid further women's rights/gender threads as much a possible for now on and not partake in any gender based flame wars in the future.
All I ask is that we remember as much as possible: All of us are just people: Overall decent, caring, well-intentioned people. I am not a man. I am just me. I do not view you as a woman. I view you as being you. I judge people on who they are as people, not by what pairing of chromosomes they have. We are all just people, breathing in and breathing out. Some of us know what is right and how others of all races, genders and otherwise are to be treated, and some of us are still unevolved egomaniacal morons that think for a second they are even better than anybody. That's how I view things, it's how I've always viewed things.
Peace to ya all. I'm outtie.
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