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A week ago Wednesday I was at work, in a grocery store about an hour from my house. My job requires that I visit various stores in my territory and I was at that store that day. I began to feel some chest pain and tried to ignore it. I worked for two more hours with this pain. I thought ... "maybe it's just indigestion" ... so I bought a bottle of rolaids, took two and continued to work for another 40 minutes or so. Since I was in a grocery store they happened to have a blood pressure monitoring machine in the pharmacy area. I went over and took my blood pressure. It read 188/111. I thought, this machine must be really out of whack. I waited there, sitting and resting for a few minutes and took it again. It read almost exactly the same. By this time, I thought, perhaps I should go to the hospital, something I *NEVER* do. Only problem was, I was an hour from the hospital near my house, where my teenage kids would be later that day.
I called my room mate and told her that I needed to go to the hospital and asked her to meet me there. Since I couldn't leave my car that far away without causing hardship in getting it back close to home, I drove myself all that way with the chest pain still there. (I know, not the smartest thing I could have done, but I wasn't disoriented at all and was in full control of my mental capacities. If I thought I couldn't have done it, I would have waited for someone to come and retrieve me instead.) If I had left my car there, I wouldn't have been paid for the mileage or the travel time back to my home area. I tried to finish my work before leaving, hoping that the pain would go away on it's own. As it was, I knew an ambulance would break the bank so I didn't opt for that. I know I am lucky that it wasn't more serious than it was after waiting for hours to get help. How silly the choices seem ... a paycheck or life.
I spent a night in the hospital (my copay will be about $250 for that). I have been out of work since that night but am stressing now because I don't get any sick time or personal time. If I am not at work, I don't get paid at all. I had a full schedule of work last week and now will be out of the loop for a week and a half's earnings! Luckily, I wasn't completely broke when this happened and I can absorb the lost time (not easily but I can absorb it if I watch every penny for the next few months) but the copay puts me further in the whole.
I gave the credit for my "episode" to two things ... having a teenager that was to graduate from high school on Thursday who is "putting me through the wringer a great deal lately", and the administration in Washington. Yes, George W. Idiot is trying to stress me to death!
I went today for the second part of the stress test and will not return to work until next Monday, even before I get any of the results of the tests. I can't afford to spend another day out of work, but I don't want the last thing I do in this world to be that lame job that I do either. My work only benefits the food brokers and the chains, certainly not humanity! But, with two kids that depend on me, I can't afford NOT to do this job for the paycheck that it provides.
I am in the same boat as your friend and George Bailey ... I am worth more dead than alive monetarily, but I am the world to my kids. My life insurance isn't through my work, I pay for that myself. As long as I can pay the premiums, the kids won't starve if I drop dead.
It sucks to be where I am right now. It really sucks.
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