This is just my personal narrative. Yours will be your own. The details will differ since each of us travels our own paths. Whatever the specific history, I am sure most of us are acutely aware of what has been lost. Not in abstract terms, but at a deeply personal life-story level.
So this is my story. Maybe tell your own?
I had the advantage of being born and raised somewhere between dirt poor and working poor, and I never got conditioned into the trap of believing that one's value and worth depends on the purchase and accumulation of things. So in that sense I was born free.
This freedom is very unlike the form of "freedom" reserved to the ultra-rich, the knowledge that they are forever immune from experiencing the consequences of their actions and are forever apart from the real world and living in a protected bubble. They can buy and possess anything that has a price. And, to be sure, with enough money, even the slightly affluent can still travel from one protected bubble to another. But there are many places they can never risk going to and special protections they can never give up. What they think of as "freedom" is just privilege. They are not free. Just blind and ignorant and isolated from reality. A few may break from that conditioning, but very few even see the cage around them.
So I am talking about something absolutely different -- the freedom to move within and experience the real world at the ground level. The freedom to go anywhere, talk to anyone as an equal, and learn. They can never have that.
Granted, it was a long, long time ago. Prehistory for many of you. Once upon a time.
Granted also, I was very lucky. I got a scholarship to one very enlightening (Antioch) college experience that broke apart many of my ideological shackles and then won a grad school fellowship that somehow kept feeding me money even when I took a year off. So I got to wander a bit further and a year longer and experience and learn a bit more than I would have without that extra two grand.
The amount of money involved was not that much (about 1/4 of the average yearly wages then and enough for a single student to easily live for a year in the US) and even if the travels had lasted only 3 months instead of 15, I would have felt and experienced the same sense of freedom that I wonder if any of you, after the last eight years, will ever enjoy.
Here is how I was free.
I traveled through Scandinavia, Western and Eastern Europe by hitch-hiking. Other than a few nights in youth hostels, some more as an invited guest, I just put up a tent anywhere that was not obstructing traffic and slept where I wanted. I traveled freely, without any fear, and without any interrogations or show-me-your-papers (other than a few border crossings) through the US supported Fascist government of Greece where fear of the government was obvious, the Soviet supported Romania of the Ceausescu period where this hitch-hiker was welcomed and invited into a home and treated to a night on the town. I never saw any hesitation to associate with me. And so on, all with no particular sense of risk.
Are you that free?
Can you even get on an airplane to go from one US city to another without showing your papers? Or, if you live in or travel to Washington State, can you even board a ferry to the San Juan Islands without showing your papers to what they call Homeland Security? How long before "Show me your papers?" is what you hear every time you want to do anything but breathe? Are you free?
After that first couple months I met up with a companion and went further into the, to me, unknown. I never visited Iraq. But Rory Stewart, who was on a humanitarian mission there, talked (on the pro-imperialist Zakaria's GPS show on CNN) about how he was threatened and spat upon when walking the streets, and I'm sure you know of much worse. Yet when I traveled the US was murdering millions in Southeast Asia, supporting the most brutal dictatorships on the planet (same as now with a few changes of place) and nothing even close ever happened to me.
So we traveled, not with the elite, always by second class train or bus or foot, through Turkey and Iran where the US supported dictatorship was quite unpopular. A bit different than Iraq, of course, because the killings and torture was then being done by a surrogate rather than directly, but the US was not regarded as a friend of the people and we were warned against wandering the streets of Meshad, a holy city where Islamic Fundies had thrived by positioning themselves as the main opposition to US-supported fascism. Yet everywhere we traveled, other than one rude rube in Turkey, we never experienced anything but indifference or the generous hospitality of of a couple in Isfahan who invited us to share a meal and some conversation - one example of many.
Not one act of hostility. And so I felt free. Scott Ritter traveled to Iran not long ago. Never impeded by the state and welcomed by the people. So maybe you could do the same today.
But do you feel free enough, confident enough, to even dare to try? Are you free? Or has your sense of shame and guilt made you afraid? Or is your awareness of the evils done by what so many of the ignorant and indoctrinated still call "we" and "us" reflected by a recognition that taking retaliation for those crimes should be expected?
Are you free? Do you even know or remember what that word once meant?
After Iran and the end of the rail lines in Meshad, we took a van transport on a dirt road to the border station for entry into Afghanistan. We arrived late at night. Customs was closed so the tent went up in the median between the two inbound/outbound lanes. A Teahouse on the other side was still lighted and seeking some tea or food we went in. Neither, or more likely some tea that I have no memory of, but a palm sized disk of Afghan Black. (Yeah, I know, a teahouse at an isolated border station is almost certainly frequented almost exclusively by border guards and customs personnel, but I figured if they just wanted to bust me and hold me for ransom they didn't need any such antics.) A trippy weird night (search Tennyson and Kipling and Afghan Black for a bit more) and totally appropriate, for we had entered, for the first time, a completely alien world. I learned more there than anywhere. See my journal for more on all that.
But even there, in this utterly different world, I was free. We went where we chose, even freely in and out of a Kabul jail without being asked for documents or being frisked. I was not seen as an enemy. A guest. A bit alien and strange, maybe, but as a guest to be protected and even given special courtesies. We walked to a Buzkashi contest on the edge of Kabul and stood on the periphery of the crowd, and those with a better view from the small set of bleachers insisted we climb up there and join them. Same treatment as in Finland or remote parts of India. Other countries as well, with the same lessons.
So I felt free, I was free. How about you? Now? Could you go there and be free? A few can (at least a few years ago, see
http://www.lukepowell.com/ ). Would you dare? Are you free?
How afraid are you now, and how much of that fear is justified by what has been done, allegedy in your name, during the last eight years on top of the mixed legacy of the previous century? Are fearful people ever free?
Can you ever be free when your country is run by non-human monsters, by corporations with no heart and no soul where you are both a sub-human cog for those profit maximizing automatons and a living symbol of their inherently anti-human and inhumane brutality?
Would you, could you do anything similar today? Would you dare, or would you want your kids to travel beyond the corporate resorts and protected enclaves of the moneyed elite? Are you free? Are they? A few maybe, but how many have lost even the ability to imagine that kind of freedom as not only possible and desirable but simply normal?
Have you begun to realize how much has been stolen from you and your children?
What would Lady Justice demand for those who have done that to us?