There's a lot at play in my life that isn't Trump's fault. I've been struggling in an abusive marriage for years and there is a lot more that weighs against me and my family. That said, I was in a much better financial position 4 years ago. I had gotten my family off SNAP and Medicaid. We even took a family vacation to another state. I was rebuilding my credit (my debt is all student loans and medical).
Now, I'm unemployed and don't know if I'll even get my job back. I was forced to renew my lease when this was the year I was going to finally get out of this shitty slumhole. I was denied unemployment benefits because I didn't make enough in 2018 and 2019. My husband was fired ( raised coronavirus safety concerns )in April and we still have no word on unemployment for him. I tried so hard to fight it, but I ended up applying for SNAP and Medicaid. We were approved just recently, but I am still waiting to get a SNAP card. I swore up and down that we would never ever be on SNAP and Medicaid again, so I am gutted that I had to apply.
You know what pisses me off? My apartment complex doesn't budge on rent relief ( they just hold off on evictions for now) and won't allow for delays with the lease renewal. This place is a shithole. My floors shake when anyone walks across them, even if it's just a cat jumping. Maybe I overreact, but I constantly worry that my floors will give way. There's a lot of broken floorboards under the carpet in some spots. They did a foundation raising and re-leveling a few years back. The floors were already uneven before that, but they are worse now. But supposedly safer. Anyway, this place is run by a multi BILLION dollar national company that I believe is also publicly traded. How much do you want to bet that they benefited from a few million in stimulus from Trump? Yet, they won't help their residents out. We get constantly reminders that rent is due the 1st of the month.
I'm so sick of people claiming they just want to reopen because they are "So worried about poor people who need to work" and they are "so worried about people in domestic violence situations." Bullshit. These people voted AGAINST better domestic violence legislation. The agencies in my area do wonderful work (I receive counseling through them), but they are unable to meet the needs of all of their victims. They just can't. And the same people vote against minimum wage legislation. They claim they are worried about mental health. Bullshit. These same people vote against legislation to expand mental health services. They just want to be served while still denying rights and basic needs.
I'm poor and in an abuse situation and I am not exactly in a rush for my job, if it will still exist. It's not that I don't WANT to work. I have a mild heart condition and it potentially increases my risk with Covid. I don't trust that my job will be safe. I do high contact work with children and with seniors. Kids coughing in my face is a routine part of my job. It's very high touch and there's a lot of equipment involved that is not easy to keep constantly *sanitized.* I don't want to be someone's guinea pig. I don't want to be sacrificed. So, I am stuck in this weird mental place where I am scared of getting sick and where I am also ashamed of myself for it - ashamed to be hesitant to get back to work. I am it for my kids. If anything happens to me, my husband wouldn't be good for them and I don't have much in the way of capable extended family. I feel so much anxiety and desperation. It doesn't help that so many people are triggered by kindness and the idea of wearing masks so you don't sicken your fellow human. And these assholes say that people like me with any risk should just "stay home." Like they're going to pay my rent? I'm so tired of these stay at home parents whining that they need everything to open because they can't handle their own kids. They can afford to be stay at home parents and they have partners who are still employed, but they are bored and can't stand kids so us poor folk need to get our asses back to work so they can sip wine while their kids are entertained.
I am pissed at Trump. It's not his fault that this virus happened. It's not his fault that it got to America. It's definitely his fault that it spread as bad as it did. It's his fault that we have a 100,000 death rate. There are less that 400,000 deaths in the entire world and America owns 100,000 of them. It's his fault that he couldn't figure out a proper economic stimulus that helped PEOPLE and not his corporation friends. It's his fault that he strangles aid to certain states. I live in PA and I'm not 100% pleased with my governor, either, but he also isn't get much help from Trump. I am pissed that Trump is pandering to these mask sissies who have made Covid into some sort of freedom fight. We could have lessened the stranglehold this virus had on us, but Trump let it go. Trump is prolonging it. Trump is letting his own people die.
Sorry to jump off of your post and rant.
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