Well, my MAGA cousin finally died. I feel weird about it.

[Coventina]

I mentioned this a few months ago, that she was dying.
Well, she finally died this morning.

I wish I felt more sorrow. We were close at one point in our lives.
Now, I feel a weird mixture of relief, sadness, and emptiness.

[Gregory Peccary]

1. Sorry for your loss. Died from Covid?

[Coventina]

3. No, she's had severe asthma since childhood, and had heart failure due to the asthma.

As far as I know, she never contracted COVID.

But, she most definitely was a T**** worshiper, and believed COVID was a Chinese plot.

[wyn borkins]

2. Regarding Your Cousins Passing

I would stick with your sense of sadness
Perhaps just to soothe that emptiness
And to quickly end that weirdness

[Wicked Blue]

4. ...

[PatSeg]

5. I can understand your mixed feelings

Hopefully you can remember her from when you were closer.

[onecaliberal]

6. I'm very sorry for your loss.

[Bernardo de La Paz]

7. Relief, sadness and emptiness is a fair response. Very human emotions, pointing toward healing

Life is weird, as is death at times.

Weird is very real, very human.

That you feel and acknowledge the mixture points towards healing and moving on. Which are good.

[rainin]

8. Lost a sister and a brother recently. I don't miss them

They changed long before they died. Their self-righteous religious beliefs, and their blind allegiance to right wing figures, turned them into very unpleasant people. It's sad, but true, that I wouldn't have wanted to live in a world with them in it. They would've actively made my life more difficult. And the truth is, life is difficult enough.

If you're up to it, you can grieve what you might have had, or grief who they once were. But, only grieve their loss if it's authentic for you.

[LoisB]

12. I am sorry for your losses. Your words speak wisdom.

[gldstwmn]

9. I am so sorry for your loss.

[PTWB]

10. Don't feel bad or guilty that you're not sorrowful.

There's nothing wrong with feeling relief that a toxic person is gone. She made her choices.

I wish you and your family the best.

[LoisB]

11. I am sorry for your loss. Especially the loss of closeness.

[llashram]

13. some one loved

will always be missed. My condolences.

[Woodwizard]

14. The closeness is the hard part

Have a cousin my age still alive, we were really close but between his extremest Catholicism which I could handle until trump got elected, the maga craziness along with borderline Qanon anti vax I feel like he is already gone.

[Aussie105]

15. Yeah. Some people die suddenly.

Others die slowly, bit by bit.

Remember the good times, when you were close, not the drifting apart.
Be wary of the path they followed, let it not be yours.