DUing while impaired
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Have you ever done something while impaired you regret later? It happened to me this afternoon here in GD. It will happen again if I stay as a regular.
Perhaps I should change my name to Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.
Try to remember I'm not who I was when I joined a little over ten years ago. OS doesn't really exist anymore.
I wear plastic casts on my thumbs for arthritis in the daytime. Even simple copy and paste takes awhile. It took a couple hours to put this all together.
I wear braces on my hands at night until I have surgery in a month or two for carpal tunnel syndrome. Just one hand at a time.
I've been on a CPAP since 2001. It was very hard to kick lunesta a few years ago. There was a missed warning there.
Both shoulders and both sides of my neck have damage from 2 at work accidents, and a car accident back on Christmas Day a couple years ago on my way home from work.
By now I'm sure you know pain killers are part of my life. Mood swings and periods of lack of judgement are right out of the medical books for me with everything going on. Think of what Marta has to put up with.
A couple dozen DUers know what is slowly killing me. I thank every single one of them for keeping my secret. I'll write that tell all post when it is time to leave for good.
I'm going to try to be a real life volunteer for newly diagnosed terminal patients. I'm going downhill, so I have no idea how long it will last. Because of the nature of what I'll be doing is confidential, I really can't share much. My first venture is next week.
I'll be attending the state boys basketball tournament for I hope the next three days if my team keeps winning, so I won't be on the DU as much as I have been since I retired.
I love the DU. When the time comes to leave I will lose a huge extended & caring family.
Sometime after that it will be the theme from M*A*S*H.
I do want to stay on the DU. Please let me know when Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde have overstayed their welcome, because I won't know it myself.
BTW, those cowards living in a cave don't bother me in anymore.
They haven't for a long time! 
Much love,
Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde A.K.A. OS
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Just kidding, but I thought you could use a laugh. 
A little scrambled, maybe, but....who isn't, really?
Youz good people, OS. ❤ 
Okay, just kidding. I thought that was funny.
You may need a few hits to appreciate the levels of that.
& Rec !!!
it comforts people to know there is someone they can call / chat who is up all night
And the ones in the cave who don't, can go f***k themselves!
Keep on keepin' on.
You are an incredibly kind man, that has given so much of your heart here. I love you (make sure Marta knows it is as a brother) your kindness to me when my dad was dying helped me through.
I wish you and Marta peace during your struggle. My thoughts are with you both. Stay with us as long as you can.
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the greater good. That's what it's been about for me, too. Please try to remember how loved you are. That is all that counts. You are a wonderful man, and it's been my pleasure to meet you and share your thoughts.
Your posts would be missed and please know that, for what it is worth, this DU-er loves all 3 of you: Omaha Steve, Dr Jekyll AND Mr Hyde. Most of us here have room in our hearts for all three of you, and feel free to post under whichever one is in control at the moment.
and the person in GD likely deserved it.
Every post I manage to see, every time I see your name, know that even if I don't chime in I'm saying a tiny Hi Steve to you.
You and Marta take care.
We're the lucky ones to have you around for however long our luck holds.
My Kindle has a tiny screen and a tiny keyboard. I often come home and find many embarrassing misspellings which I couldn't see when I wrote my original comment. 
... but whatever it was you did this afternoon, I'm proud of you. Love you OS. Those CT surgeries are really going to help. I know, because I had the same thing. Still plagued with Arthur, but CT is impossible to deal/cope with. Wish they could get you in sooner than a month from now, though. I'll pray for cancellations so your surg will be moved up.
that I came to realize you were in such a state but it did remind me of an important action that we could all participate in... especially when you made a similar post concerning this a while back because you had a rough day and felt the need to express your truth. Forgiving is important and we should all have the compassion to do so when situations like yours end up making for a bad moment or two.
I, personally, truly appreciate your participation and contribution here, I think of you as a wise "elder" on this site. (By elder I mean like the revered wise ones in any family or tribe who have seen so much in life that they have insight most can only aspire to possess.)
Bad days and moments happen to everyone in a myriad of ways, yours sound hard to bear and because I understand suffering and the break in composure that can overwhelm us at times, I will always forgive you for them when they occur here.
I do hope you will be with us for some time as you still have much to teach us. But I also don't want you to suffer beyond you ability to bear what you do endure. I thank you for staying with us through it all, even when you have rough moments that might even ruffle the feathers of some who don't know.
Carry on, cyber friend, we will cover for you when necessary because those of us who do know will be here to do just that... because we love and respect you.
I am truly sorry you are going through so much and hope you will recover so you can continue to post here.
Take care and keep posting, you are much loved on DU.
thank you. much respect, omaha steve
Nor, your strength of spirit. you're going through so much.. I can imagine a little bit how hard it must be to keep up your spirits.
I've glad you have DU and I hope you'll be able to post for a long long time. 
Many hugs & much love.
Impaired myself and screw anyone who cannot tolerate us. 
Much love back...
a whole lot less fun and informative.
Keep on keepin on Steve! You are 'part of the ship, part of the crew' on DU. 
... it's fantastic that DU is a community that you love. You feel welcome and appreciated, and that feeling goes a long, long way.
Hang in there.
There's a lot of arrogant insensitivity over there, Steve. Tip o'the hat to you, dude.
Omaha Steve. Anything you say is great by me.
So much love.
It's pretty good and we sickies stick together.
I'm sorry for whatever has got you.
Re: Pain and Pain meds. Do you live in a state that allows cannabis, or do you have a mailbox (or better yet, a friend with a mailbox who is out of town with regularity)? Cannabis is helping me greatly.
You get a pass, every time. You are one of my favorite DU'ers and you represent the best of us all. We love you and we're here for you, so go forth and do good, as you always do!
Omaha Steve
I wish you the best - and if I have had the money - I would have given it - so you could get what you deserve to have gotten....
And please - do continue to write here on DU as long as you is able to do so - as your toughs and writings is something I try to read when I catch it - it is always a thoughtfulness around it, and I like to read what you write
Diclotican
You're a real sweetie pie.
To be more serious, you obviously have done much good while you've been here. Meditate on that in your darker moments. Best wishes to you and your family.
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I just haven't started using it yet. Now they call trying to sell an upgrade.
To do list.
