Deadly "virus" hitting hard and it isn't a health issue...
Nope. It is not a health issue.
It started in the pit of my stomach and has been gnawing at my life for months. Since there actually were/are multiple health issue viruses running rampant in my community and I work closely with a wide swatch of the public, I figured I was always just fighting off the latest batch. But it wasn't like any other "virus" I'd dealt with. Very different and worrisome.
Then it hit me like a ton of bricks. This, I now realize, is something much different and it is indeed scaring me.
It's a tight ball of hate like I have never felt before. Every single day of this cretin's position of power, new, fuckingunbelievable atrocities are started, suggested, threatened, put in place that continually destroy decency, compassion, humanity, the country, the earth. Every single morning noon and night he and the wretched ilk of soulless arrogant goons called the Republican Party are plotting planning and executing treacherous foulness against the people of this nation and systematically destroying the air water land of this earth.
Every waking moment.
And I recognize now that it isn't an airborne virus that makes all my food taste terrible, all my steps harder to take and all my breaths catching in my throat. It's hate.
I actually hate these men. I. hate. Them.
I've never experienced this. Ever.
Scary as hell. Numbing. Debilitating. Anger laced. Yet I, along with millions of others, keep plodding along. I can't console or nurture anyone anymore because I have no words of comfort available now. I have nothing. My nurturing nature has been silenced. It's such a vacuum of existence. So foreign and painful with no visible wounds.
And it hasn't been two months. Not two months of this monstrous, nauseating, vile agenda.
I can only grasp at straws of hope that some who haven't been infected in the same way...some who have the security of funds and some semblace of real power and not just stubborn advocacy can and will actually do something to stop this foul virus.
(Goddess, Jesus, Buddha, God, Mother Mary, Dr. Who What When Where and How...anything!!!!!)
No, it isn't a health issue.
It is a hate issue.
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But it is so difficult to follow when these latter-day Nazis are wreaking havoc with literally everything I have stood for throughout my 70+ year life!
For me, the determination, the resistance, the persistence, the organization, the focus and the concentration that you speak of are all there. But dismay, horror and real fear drive them, together with my utter loathing for what these people are doing.
why it really is impossible to talk to many Republicans today. That hatred that is "easily practiced and readily coursing through just about every Republican vein" is indeed a "foreign body," alien to basic humanity and humanity's aspirations. Too many have it and are doing nothing to fight it. Such people have truly have lost their souls as well as their minds.
So long as you find that "foreign body" unnerving when you recognize it in yourself, you are not in danger of losing yours. 
Stay strong and keep yourself as physically healthy as you can. Stay as far away from toxic people and situations as you can. I realize that may be hard in the workplace or in "red" areas, but try not to let anyone "push your buttons" - always easier said than done, but still.... Listening to music you love, reading good literature, interacting with friends and family you love and then working as hard as YOU personally can to make whatever difference in whatever way you can will help. Remember that you are NOT alone. We are legion and we were indeed the majority - even in the 2016 debacle!
If you haven't already become part of Pantsuit Nation, see whether you know anyone personally who is and who will nominate you because I believe that the site is still private to avoid the "anti-everything" bots. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pantsuit_Nation There are so many inspiring stories from so many wonderful people there.
There are also many inspiring groups that have arisen from the Women's March on Washington and they spell out how to remain active and make positive contributions.
I have felt this too - and have considered going to a therapist. Don't want to do drugs or drink, but want this out of my life. Some days, Death would not be unwelcome.
Response to Guilded Lilly (Original post)
It started in mid-November. I never had an issue AT ALL until then; that, along with a worsening insomnia. I have a uncharacteristic short fuse. I've almost entirely stopped baking, which is an activity I usually enjoy. My usually vivid and exciting dreams are now nightmares. I miss the old me. I feel tired.
