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Thu Feb 7, 2019, 08:00 AM

Today is the day

Last edited Thu Feb 7, 2019, 05:32 PM - Edit history (3)

After 11 long years, today is my last dose of methadone.

I'm so excited and proud and nervous. It's only a small 2.5 mg. drop to nothing(!), my very last dose of a long, gradual tapering. I'm sure I'll feel a little crappy for a week or so, just like with every other incremental decrease ... it just feels so weird that I'll be completely done. FINALLY!!

Methadone absolutely saved my life, I have zero doubts about that. I just can't believe it's been 11 goddamn years.


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Thank you all so much! I certainly wasn't expecting this large of a response!
(and I didn't realize the post would show up outside of the Addiction section, lol!)

It's overwhelming to have so much support. I truly appreciate all the kind words, thoughts, and encouragement. It means a lot to me, especially today. Whenever I'm feeling a little rough on this last taper, I'm going to come back here to reread all these lovely comments.
Thank you.

Medication assisted treatment WORKS! I cannot wait until the stigma and misinformation surrounding it are gone and it's finally easy for anyone who wants help to get it, that day.

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happybird Feb 2019 OP
Squinch Feb 2019 #1
Lefta Dissenter Feb 2019 #2
Dead_Parrot Feb 2019 #3
Scarsdale Feb 2019 #4
bluecollar2 Feb 2019 #5
knightmaar Feb 2019 #6
happybird Feb 2019 #38
PWPippinesq Feb 2019 #7
FailureToCommunicate Feb 2019 #8
Freddie Feb 2019 #9
Soxfan58 Feb 2019 #10
safeinOhio Feb 2019 #11
SaveOurDemocracy Feb 2019 #12
handmade34 Feb 2019 #13
Lonestarblue Feb 2019 #14
ProfessorPlum Feb 2019 #15
Callalily Feb 2019 #16
volstork Feb 2019 #17
deek Feb 2019 #18
dlk Feb 2019 #19
Fuzzpope Feb 2019 #20
Moostache Feb 2019 #21
ET Awful Feb 2019 #22
FakeNoose Feb 2019 #23
Ponietz Feb 2019 #24
KY_EnviroGuy Feb 2019 #25
thinkingagain Feb 2019 #26
lillypaddle Feb 2019 #27
vlyons Feb 2019 #28
chia Feb 2019 #29
panader0 Feb 2019 #30
TygrBright Feb 2019 #31
Fatemah2774 Feb 2019 #32
happybird Feb 2019 #37
Blue Owl Feb 2019 #33
BigmanPigman Feb 2019 #34
rurallib Feb 2019 #35
happybird Feb 2019 #36
Dem2theMax Feb 2019 #39
chowder66 Feb 2019 #40
jls4561 Feb 2019 #41
lunatica Feb 2019 #42
Honeycombe8 Feb 2019 #43
Daddy J Feb 2019 #44
littlemissmartypants Feb 2019 #45
sellitman Feb 2019 #46
akraven Feb 2019 #47
yonder Feb 2019 #48
Karadeniz Feb 2019 #49
Fla Dem Feb 2019 #50
stevil Feb 2019 #51
Generic Brad Feb 2019 #52
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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 08:03 AM

1. Well done! That is wonderful. All the best to you!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 08:04 AM

2. Wow!

Congratulations!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 08:18 AM

3. well done dude! n/t

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 08:22 AM

4. Congratulations!

You stuck with it, and it worked. So happy for you. Keep up the good work, it is worth it.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 08:22 AM

5. Well done!!!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 08:23 AM

6. It takes eleven years to bring it down to zero?

That's incredible determination, seeing that all the way through.

Congrats.

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Response to knightmaar (Reply #6)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 04:30 PM

38. Everyone is different

Some can do it much faster, but I needed the long road. It took me 5 or 6 years on a consistent, high dose (a blocking dose) to lose the desire to use heroin and to get my life sorted out. After that, I tapered down by about half and then stopped to re-stabilize at the lower dose for a couple years. Did that process twice, and have been on 20 mg. for the last 2-3 years. I finally bit the bullet in August and began my final charge. The last 20 mg. have been the hardest- which has been super annoying because it's such a (relatively) piddly amount. I've definitely felt each little decrease this time.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 08:25 AM

7. Well done!

You persevered and won.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 08:26 AM

8. Congratulations! Crank up some Dead and be grateful...

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 08:41 AM

9. Yay!!!

My son is a recovering heroin addict. 3 years clean this month. Itís good to hear about people who have stuck with it for a long time!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 08:47 AM

10. Good job!

You should be very proud!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 08:51 AM

11. Congrats..Not easy, but

well worth it.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 09:00 AM

12. Welcome to the rest of your life.

My son struggled with addiction for 10 years. Actually, the whole family struggled.
Clean and sober 3+ years and loving life.

Good luck, stick with it.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 09:21 AM

13. congratulations!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 09:31 AM

14. Congratulations on a battle well fought!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 09:35 AM

15. so happy for you

be tender with yourself. you've been through a lot.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 09:45 AM

16. What an amazing accomplishment!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 09:51 AM

17. Kudos to you!

Well done and best of luck each day going forward!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 09:53 AM

18. congratulations

you must be so proud

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 09:58 AM

19. Congratulations-This is an Epic Accomplishment!

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Thu Feb 7, 2019, 10:00 AM

21. Congratulations! Stay strong and with your supporters.

Best wishes for a continued daily victory for you.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 10:00 AM

22. I'll get up and fly away. . . .

Good job! Keep it up and if you get confused, listen to the music play.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 10:01 AM

23. Good job, now the rest is up to you

We're all rooting for you Happybird!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 10:13 AM

24. Slaying the dragon...

...well done, amigo.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 10:21 AM

25. ODAT and Congratulations, Happybird.

From a friend in recovery.....a lifetime journey!.........

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 10:31 AM

26. Congratulations

Have the most beautiful day!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 10:38 AM

27. Congrats to you

What a long, hard row it has been for you.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 10:49 AM

28. Patience is a virtue

So is enthusiastic perseverance a virtue. So congratulations. Your long and persistent struggle with this difficulty demonstrates that you are a virtuous person. Go celebrate!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 10:53 AM

29. Congratulations - I am in awe of your accomplishment

May the wind be at your back and the sun on your face as you take your next steps on this journey of life.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 11:00 AM

30. Recommended.

You should be proud.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 11:14 AM

31. Wow! Well done, you. Hang in there.

Sometimes it can hit you like a ton of bricks with a delay. Take it ONE day at a time and you KNOW you can do this!

appreciatively,
Bright

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 11:20 AM

32. I have tears in my eyes

Of joy for you. I'm battling addiction too and have an appointment today.

May I have a similar success as you and others who have posted.

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Response to Fatemah2774 (Reply #32)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 04:11 PM

37. Thinking of you

and sending positive vibes. Deciding to make a change and making the first appointment is such an enormous, scary step. Be proud of yourself, it's a big deal! Well done! Once you and the doc get your correct dosage figured out and you stabilize, it's like the world reopens to you. You get your life back. Day by day, it will get little better- you just have to hang in there until they get your dosage right. It's so worth it, I promise.

You can do it!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 01:58 PM

33. You put the "done" in "methadone"

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 03:26 PM

34. Great!

That is how Tony Bourdain was able to stop permanently.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 03:29 PM

35. Quite an accomplishment, mr. bird. Huge congratulations

I have always wondered what happens to people on such programs - how long it takes, how do they feel. And now I know.

Here's to a long and happy life for you!

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Thu Feb 7, 2019, 04:35 PM

39. Congratulations! That is an amazing accomplishment.

I can't even comprehend having to do that for 11 years, but you did it! You have every reason to be extremely proud of yourself.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 04:46 PM

40. Tomorrow is a new birthday for you! : ) nt

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 05:16 PM

41. Good on ya!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 06:13 PM

42. Big hugs to you!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 06:27 PM

43. So if you go berserko and start cussing people out....

we will understand. If it's someone else you cuss out.

Congratulations for getting that monkey off your back. I can only imagine how tough that was, and will be, now. But I bet your life is a lot better these days.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 06:40 PM

44. Hats off to you!

People say "I wish you the best," "Good luck!", and other similar things on such an occasion. I want to express these sentiments for you and your accomplishment, too, but I'm pretty sure your quitting didn't depend on luck or fate or wishes. I bet it took a lot of courage, determination, tries, doubts, self-reflection, and help from others to get to this point. I've quit addictions (many times each), too. It sure ain't easy. I salute you!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 06:48 PM

45. Congratulations!

So happy that you made it to the other side! Well done!







I take an extended release opioid twice a day and hope that if I can no longer get it, for whatever reason, my physician will compassionately wean me off the drug. It has changed my life and I am miserable without pain management. But the prospect of not having it is frightening.

All the best to you!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 07:07 PM

46. A great accomplishment.

It goes to show people that anything can be accomplished if you really try hard. Welcome to DU. I hope we hear more of your accomplishments in the future.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 07:12 PM

47. Major congratulations!

A very good friend also went through this - so I know peripherally how hard it is. WAY TO GO!!!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 07:46 PM

48. Congratulations, happybird. Good on ya!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 08:00 PM

49. Good on ya!

Health plans need to get real. The only experience I have of the methadone treatment was the streetcat named Bob book...the author's treatments were, I'm sure, covered by British natonal health. His description is vivid. If you haven't read it, it's good...going to be a movie!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 08:07 PM

50. Congratulations! A truly remarkable accomplishment!👏👏👏🎉

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 09:20 PM

51. So happy for you

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 10:54 PM

52. Congratulations!

So glad you have healed. Youíve earned your restored health.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 11:03 PM

53. this post brings a smile to me face

I've lost too many friends to this , am and so proud of you .. you have no idea <3

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Thu Feb 7, 2019, 11:57 PM

54. Excellent! Bravo! You win the post of the day, IMHO.

Good for you happy bird! May you remain proudly sober for the rest of your life.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Fri Feb 8, 2019, 12:11 AM

55. Good on you, mate!

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Fri Feb 8, 2019, 02:16 AM

56. So excited for the next phase of your journey!

Nt

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Fri Feb 8, 2019, 02:25 AM

57. Congratulations and hugs!

Give yourself a really BIG pat on the back!

And for damn sure, you now know that we all are here for you.

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Fri Feb 8, 2019, 02:41 AM

58. Thanks for sharing this happy news, happybird! And welcome to DU! n/t

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Response to happybird (Original post)

Sun Feb 10, 2019, 02:06 PM

59. Congratulations and Best Wishes...Today and Everyday !!!!

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