okay i need reasons tonight

[irisblue]

Last edited Tue Jul 24, 2012, 10:58 AM - Edit history (2)

i really really want a vodka shot, with lime tonight. i really want one. last weekend i gotten from craigs list a very pink girly bike. I wanted to strenghten my thigh muscles before the replacement surgery, when ever the state of ohio & my previous employer stop screwing around. I kinda wish some one has taped me failling down I might have learned something useful. I landed mainly on my soon ( please god) to be replaced left knee & elbow cuz was I wearing both braces, which did look funny they had damage. some big pebbles on the ourside and blood on the inside. The helmet was worth every penny and more, it saved my left cheek and my only pair of glasses. ....crap this hurts.....so since i can't/won't wake up my sponcer ( her kid is sick & 6 year old) I desperately am seeking hugs experience strength and hope from my family here. The bus system here in cowtown has bike racks on the front of the busses, so i'll find a day time meeting tomorrow. For the record.....invest in a helmet, i could have been a organ doner ( but they would passed on the liver). I'll take 2 tylenol PM, a clonopin, prop my knee on two pillows so I can sleep. I really know that riding my bike to the bar around the block and around the corner is begging for major trouble. and i don't want any more of that.

[Rhiannon12866]

1. All you have to do is make it through tonight.

If you still want to have a drink tomorrow, you can. It's just one day at a time, so all you have to do is make it until tomorrow. I really do sympathize, used to drink to lessen pain, as well. It took me seven years and three surgeries to stop the pain, so I know it's not easy. I would also have a serious talk with my doctor about pain management. But nothing is worth a drink for me now. I know where it's taken me before, so I have to keep that in mind, the consequences. And after all the work I've done, I just don't have it in me to start over again. Hang in there, you can do it, just for tonight. Sorry that I'm replying so late, have been out of state for the weekend, and I know you needed a reply tonight. Let us know how you're doing. I've been there, my friend...

[NMDemDist2]

2. what rhiannon said

just today, just this 10 minutes, just this next breath, don't drink

the craving will pass, the slip won't.

sorry about the pain and fear, but a drink really won't make it better in the long run

[irisblue]

3. the knee hurts,still.

but for tonight, just water and tylenol pm bike should keep. I'll call the orthopod in the am, & tell him about the fall and ask if i can do more for pain control. I can bend my left knee about 15-20 degrees, but not much more. side to side motion is not possible. my elbow is pretty good, but I cant cook dinner, do dishes or clean the kitchen ( ahhh). i don't want a drink as much, so i'll be safer tonight. thanks for listening to me. This disease sucks buck time. scabs are itchy. Hugs to both of you for checking on me.
kind regards iris

[Rhiannon12866]

4. That's the best idea.

Sounds like you really need to see a doctor. I used to drink to alleviate pain, probably what got me started. I was eventually put on pain meds so stopped drinking and didn't pick up again until after the surgery that cured what ailed me. That was one big mistake. A drink isn't what you need right now and any relief will be fleeting, let alone the consequences you'll face afterwards. We alcoholics can drink, but we can't stop, and that's the problem. Hang in there and see your doctor. And please let us know how you are. I've been there, iris, and I care...

[Taverner]

5. You could look at it this way: Pain is the only way we know we're really alive