So, what was up with me a few months ago? Or now, for that matter?

[Denninmi]

I am pondering the difference between where I was in August/September and now.

RE: the extreme fear, most of which has proven irrational. Symptom or merely a stress response that anyone could experience under circumstances deemed dire? Probably some of both.


Now: I really feel like I am getting my act together. I had my second appointment with the new psychiatrist last night, and I really like her. At the end of my appt, I showed her some photos of the Sandhill cranes I have been feeding, and we talked birding a few moments, she loves animals.

Doctor, check. Therapist, check. Lamictal, check. Physical health, check, getting it all controlled. Diet, exercise, sleep, check. Relationships, rough but I have faith they will improve. Finances, well, I guess 6 out of 7 isn't too bad.

So, for whatever reason, I feel like I have a real future, not one in the psych ward or gutter.

And that is a good thing.

[elleng]

1. Lots of very good things, Den!

[Denninmi]

2. Thanks, my dear.

Love ya. And Happy Hanukkah. I gave my trainer the card today, he was tickled. Which made me tickled. I love giving gifts.

[fizzgig]

3. i am so pleased that you have progressed as you have

coping with an illness is never easy, especially if you lack the support (medical or personal) that you need. it takes small steps and remembering to take care of ourselves. you seem to be in a much better place now and i am glad for that.

[Denninmi]

4. Thanks, me too.

I feel like a survivor now, and I didn't think I had it in me.

I am determined to get past this in its entirety.

You've been a good friend to me through this thing.

[fizzgig]

5. it's amazing the strength we find in ourselves

we're like weeble wobbles, knock us down and we'll find a way to get back up

[libodem]

6. A little distance

Gives one perspective. When you are in the trenches slogging it out you can't see how it looks. It takes a look back. Glad to know you have made progress. And that your life is improving. I'm not sure if you have me on ignore because you never comment on my replies to you.

Oh, well. It's ok. I just hope I'm not harassing or annoying you. I've been following your progress here and by extension feel like an acquaintance.
I wish you well.

[Denninmi]

7. Oh, God No.

Sorry, I guess just an oversight. I'm happy to have your input, and apologize if I missed you.

I'll offer you this is further apology: