how is everyone doing ?

[steve2470]

I'm about a 4. Rough few days. Waiting for med refill.

How are you ?

[efilon]

1. I'm probably about a 7

which is about the best it gets for me. I've had those times when some rough days seem to last forever. I hope your med refill helps you to feel better. We have to stick together, so many don't understand the work we have to put in to keep going day after day.

[steve2470]

2. thanks, yes we do need to stick together

I got my meds refilled, so I'm feeling better now, thank you.

[gvstn]

3. Terrible.

My mom died suddenly this Spring. I was her caretaker for a decade. I'm having trouble redefining myself.

I've always been a bit depressed but this has pushed me into major clinical depression. I had a terrible experience with Prozac and particularly Paxil. Lithium seemed to help but I don't think I have ever laughed outloud for 20 years since going on those drugs.

I know I need help but am afraid of just taking the newest drug out there. Any advice? I'm just not clicking 100%. I really can't think correctly now but know I need help. Anyone have a good experience with mental health issues?

[steve2470]

4. ask your doc about Pristiq, works for me

[gvstn]

7. Thanks Steve.

I'm not on any meds now. But have to look into them because I don't think I can turn the corner in my mind by myself.

I never heard of Pristiq but will have to look into it.

This is the worst I have ever been. I don't even care about fixing myself. Where is the "black pill" that helps end it all?

[Tobin S.]

5. I am well.

I've got some rough stuff going on right now, but I am weathering it okay. None of it has to do with my state of mind. I'm pretty sturdy in that department now days.

1. Grandma had a stroke. She is recovering well, but it's still hard to see her like that.
2. I filed for bankruptcy at the end of July. The hearing earlier this month made me feel like a criminal.
3. I graduated from college last December, but have been unable to find a better job.

I'm doing what I can for grandma. The bankruptcy will be discharged by mid-November and it has been a huge relief so far. I don't ever want to use credit again. And I applied for six different jobs today. So I'm trying hard. Hopefully, something good will come through for me pretty soon.

However, despite all of that, my brain is functioning well. I'm not having any adverse reactions. A lot of people would be depressed if all of that hit them at once, even healthy people, but I'm okay.

[auntAgonist]

10. Tobin

I'm so sorry for all that's going on right now

I hope your Grandma recovers well and life returns to normal (what ever that may be) for her.

aA
kesha

PS.
me? I'm not doing so great but i wake up each morning so that's something.

Hi to Jen from us please.

D&K

[Tobin S.]

11. Thanks, Kesha.

I hope you get to feeling better soon.

[2theleft]

6. I'm on the rebound.

Lost my job of 20 years late July. I have luckily been able to find another job making the same pay. Relationship is VERY rocky, so we will see where that goes.

To everyone feeling down - one day at a time, one thought at a time, stop the worry, the beating yourself up, the 2nd guessing, the "wish I...". We all have value. We all have people that care about us. Deep breaths.

[irisblue]

8. good thing tomorrow is appt day

new psych nurse in the am, therapist in the pm. Anyone have EMDR therapy? Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing. Wiki article is a good over view.

[steve2470]

9. tried EMDR, failed for me, sigh nt

[olddots]

12. in a holding pattern

don't know whats holding the holding pattern in place .

[mopinko]

13. hey there steve. i am hanging in there, but

def hanging.
kinda crummy year at the farm, and the divorce continues to drag out. he is cashing in investments, and i cant stop him. using the money, in part, to buy the affection of the kids. just took middle child on a week's vacation in seattle.
had to hire a forensic accountant to examine the financial records, which we ended up having to subpoena.
now another boodle of money to prepare interrogatories about the HUGE withdrawals. meantime, he is banging on me for a couple of $1000 cash withdrawals that he knows damn well went for legit purposes.

and he has a new girlfriend, that my daughters hooked him up with.

argh.

it has been over a year and a half in this stupid holding pattern. the big thing- i dont think i will really be able to grieve until it is done. tho the girlfriend thing helped. missed him for the first time after seeing his "flirty face" aimed at her in a fb photo. only seen his bad side in all this time, but now i remember what i am missing.
it's like there is a big boulder at the top of the hill w my name on it. just waiting for it to roll down, and know i cant do anything about it.

meds keep me from being at the bottom of the well, but sure am dangling my toes in the water.

[steve2470]

14. .......

[mopinko]

15. thx.

there isnt much to be said.

[madrchsod]

16. ....4 out of 10

it`s been god that has helped me for two years. sometimes i can reach the way a great days but so many days are nothing....maybe so i can reborn but it is hard to done in a short time of my live. at my age i have nothing more to has but only to rebuild what i have to do. my life have very little time left....maybe i can show my friends how well i can rebuild my life......