psychic fragility problem, seeking support

[dem4mylyfe]

Hi Mental Health Support group members,

I posted at DU a long time ago under another name. I still lurk but now want to post (mainly) here.

I'll make this as brief as I can. I've been in and out of therapy for years. My most pressing problem (besides my chronic depression) is my psychic fragility. The fragility word came from my therapist. I am now doing EMDR with my therapist.

Translated, it means I get my feelings hurt extremely easily. I even get my feelings hurt "too easily" on DU, which makes me not want to post in General Discussion or really any of the forums.

Can anyone relate to this problem ?

[EFerrari]

1. Welcome back to DU. This is a good place to post if filtering is problematic.

[dem4mylyfe]

2. filtering ?

I'm a little confused. Thank you for the warm welcome !

[EFerrari]

6. Filtering as in the ability to tune out things that are potentially upsetting or painful.

[dem4mylyfe]

7. oh thanks for the explanation

Yes it's very helpful.

[Lint Head]

3. I can relate. I sought approval and validation when I did anything as a child and all through my

teen years. I came right out of high school into the professional music business. I was immediately rubbing elbows with people I had idolized. Rejection is the hardest thing to overcome and I was rejected by some of the very people I thought would approve of me because I approved of them. I started out living in a fantasy world and eventually reality came crashing down around me. I was idealistic and thought everyone's opinion mattered. I became very depressed, had panic attacks and took mood altering drugs to no avail.

What happened is that I eventually came to a realization that I had to work threw the weeds to find the flowers and that I could not save the world. I've also came to realize and appreciate the approval I did receive and that helped me grow as a person. I am thankful every day I wake up and can take another breath.

I hope you overcome your depression. It's not worth punishing yourself over what someone else thinks. Changing peoples minds is not easy and usually a long and futile process. Life is too short Peace.

[dem4mylyfe]

4. Thank you very much for your kind post

I'll keep doing my best and I wish you the best also.

[hunter]

5. Hello!

I know the depression, the effectiveness of my meds over the years waxes and wanes. At my worst this depression is a black hole that sucks the life out of everything.

I may have been fragile at some point in my life, but that's buried under at least forty years of scar tissue or hidden by autistic spectrum insensitivity. I'm not sure. The things that set me off don't seem to be related to what anyone says about me, it's more about what's happening. I HATE flying, I don't like parties, I'm constantly fidgeting, and all my clothes have to feel the same...

...enough of that, it's nice to see you here!

[dem4mylyfe]

8. Thank you for the warm welcome

I wish you the very best on your journey also.