thank you guys for all your love this week

[fizzgig]

i had forgotten just how hard it is to go through this and you have helped ease the crushing pain i'm feeling.

we made a midnight run to mcdonald's last night, something fat cat would have approved of, and had cheeseburgers and fries in her honor. waking up was this morning was awful because she wasn't curled up with me when i did and she wasn't there to talk my ear off. my heart jumps at every glimpse of white i catch from the corner of my eye, only to be crushed when i realize it's not her. the house feels so empty and it's so amazing that someone so small filled the house so much.

the dim one looked around for her at treat time last night, but i don't know that she understands yet.

i really do you guys.

[shenmue]

1. Ceiling Cat bless u

[In_The_Wind]

2. Love you fizzgig.

Our golden, Lady Leigh, looked for Byron after he was gone. She moped as we all did.

Time passes but the pain of saying goodbye never goes away.

[Skittles]

3. "...it's so amazing that someone so small filled the house so much"

so very true indeed

[catbyte]

4. I'm thinking about both you and your husband, fizzgig.

Hugs to you both and, again, my sympathies.

[countryjake]

5. It sure does help to talk, I think.

I've lost quite a few "kids" in my years on here, but I've never much been able to share those painful feelings when I'm going thru any death. One year ago right now I was in the throes of it (my own favorite kitty had died while I was out of state, helping my aged mother pass) and trying to deal holding it all inside is certainly too hard.

I told my SO what you'd posted to me yesterday, first about how your kitty passed and then how close your hubby was to her. He actually had to laugh at your "running off together" line...first smile I've seen around here for almost a month, fizzgig. He definitely relates to that, ha! And then we went on to talk about our dear Skagit. Good talk.

I want to thank you for sharing your grief here because it really does help us all. Every one of us must learn to deal with the pain of death, sooner or later.

When I see those ghostly visions (mine are flashes of black), I talk to our Skagit just like she was really there...tell her that she is welcome to stay as long as she likes and that I'll miss her "reminders" once they begin to fade.
Immediate memories get replaced by the especially good ones, eventually...those ones we carry in our hearts forever.

Big hugs for you and yours and all here who can't help but cry when they read a post such as yours.

[ginnyinWI]

6. my 12 year old is my kitty alarm clock.

It would be very lonely without that morning wake up call. She's really good about it--just walks across the pillows and makes little squeaking noises until we get up. And at night she curls up with me in bed and purrs. When we are away from home I really miss that.

[Voice for Peace]

7. I am so sorry

it is such an ache, your heart must be hurting. I've lost four kitties within 5 months.
There have been days I could barely breathe. I am also grateful for this loving community of those who understand these losses, and how profound the love is.

Those glimpses from the corner of your eye.. may they bring you gladness and sweet memories. I have felt distinctly, each time, that for the first few days they were not altogether gone. And when I get a glimpse like that, I know. They do not leave us suddenly, they linger with us.

[G_j]

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