Goodbye Jitters
He was one of three I took into my home in 2003/2004. He was 16 years old and the last to die.
I was going to take him to the vet this morning and was sure they would suggest that he be euthanized. I found him dead when I went down to sit with him for a while before we had to leave. Maybe he understood that I couldn't bear to watch as he left this life.
I said goodbye to him last night and prayed that he would find himself in a place where he could be free and have the life I could never give him.
Jitters, Onyx and Graphite were my friends and companions. They gave me love and comfort when I was utterly alone and had nowhere else to turn. They gave me joy and broke my heart. They all deserved better lives than they had with me.
I hope to see them again. There would be nothing better than to laugh, run and play in the sunshine and finally know that they understand how much I love them.
Thanks for reading this. I needed to let my grief out where someone might acknowledge them and understand what a blessing they were to a foolish old man.
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"We who choose to surround ourselves with lives even more temporary than our own, live within a fragile circle; easily and often breached. Unable to accept its awful gaps, we would still live no other way. We cherish memory as the only certain immortality, never fully understanding the necessary plan." - Irving Townsend
RIP, Jitters.
In our farm-like environment, my landlord lost both her dogs in the past six weeks. Still getting over it. Both passed after very long lives full of love and everything a dog could want.
What a hard time to suddenly find oneself without the comfort and companionship of a beloved cat.
I'm sure you gave them good lives: they had each other, they had you, they had safety.
RIP, Jitters.
happy memories you have of his life (and Graphite and Onyx) help to comfort you. We never have enough time with our pets. Rest In Peace Jitters .
I'm sure you gave them a better life than you're imagining. You know how many kitties and doggies have nobody and live on the streets? They don't care about many of the things we care about. If they are fed and not lonely and cold, I'm pretty confident they are happy.
Looking at my boy who was born July 4, 2003 and dreading what you're talking about 
Jitters
had to buy a cat carrier that was supposed to arrive Friday, and made the plan to take him in over the weekend. The carrier was delayed and that Sunday morning, as he was sleeping on my shoulder as ever, a sound I never heard before came from him. I shot awake and grabbed him, he jerked one time and died in my hands.
He preempted me. Never had a cat who loved me as much as Luke did. Maybe he was simply ready to go, maybe he wanted to spare me the pain of being the instrument of his death.
I'm so sorry for your loss.. I hope you will soon get another pet or three to be your loving companions. They make life immeasurably better.
You are a wise one to realize the pure joy you can derive from giving a loving, safe home to an animal who loves you unconditionally. Many people will never know the peace and serenity that comes from simply petting your fur babies. You have that comfort even as your heart breaks from the loss. Many of your fellow DUers send out our condolences to you.
Our pets are family.
May Jitters cross gently. May your heart find peace in knowing that you loved well and were well loved.
Deepest sympathies, R.P. McMurphy.
You are not foolish, and I do believe you will see them again.
You will be together again. In fact, I am sure they are still with you in spirit. They all know you love them. Jitters left on his own terms. That was a great gift to you.
I'm so sorry for you loss.
It's hard and I know how much it hurts.
So sorry for your loss.
Healing vibes on the way! 💓💓💓
May you find healing in your precious memories.
