Has anyone heard from Evoman?

[Heddi]

Last I remember, his cancer wasn't going so well

[EvolveOrConvolve]

1. I'm worried about it

He posted in the Gaming group in April, but that's the only post he's made since this one: http://www.democraticunderground.com/11461215

Shit

[Arugula Latte]

2. I'm Facebook friends with him.

He is having a rough road, but hanging in there and still dealing with chemo and all the other horrors of cancer, which is of course an ongoing nightmare. I'm glad that he has been able to take a couple of trips, but it takes a lot of stamina to travel under those conditions. I think he has super-human strength, considering the stuff he's been through.

[progressoid]

3. Let him know we're thinking about him...

And praying for him too!

May he be touched by His Noodley appendage

[Arugula Latte]

7. I will pass that along.

Ramen.

[LeftishBrit]

4. My best wishes to him.

[Heddi]

8. Give him my love, and let him know I'm thinking about him

and hope he is living a life free of pain and full of love and happiness.

[Arugula Latte]

9. I've sent him a link to this thread.

As for the pain, it is almost always with him. I think he has a lot of love and some happiness, though.

[cantbeserious]

5. Best Wishes Evoman

eom

[trotsky]

6. Glad you made this thread.

I've been thinking about him as well.

[Goblinmonger]

10. Get well my friend.

I think of all the fantastic plays you could write off the new characters in Religion.

[deucemagnet]

11. I miss reading your comments in this forum, Evoman.

Best wishes.

[Evoman]

12. hey guys.

Hey peoples.

Thanks for thinking about me guys. I actually don't have any real good excuses for not posting. Honestly, its just laziness on my part. Right now I'm talking a long earned vacation from not working by not working in another city. I'm writing on a tablet since I didn't pack my laptop and its annoying to type, so I'll make this short with a promise that when I get back home I'll update you guys a little better.

For now, let me just say that things could be better on the cancer front. After a fairly long time of being static on the chemo, on my last checkup there were signs of progression. The metastatic tumours from my colon cancer in my lung's grew quite a bit. Part of it was my fault for taking a break from chemo. Couldn't quite help it...it was just beating me up too much. I wasn't recovering from the last chemo before getting hit again. The thing about chemo is that even though it might keep the cancer static, it doesn't mean you stay static... you feel worse and worse with every subsequent chemo. I was going to take a break before my vacation but my oncologist was worried that were might not be able to get it stable again if I took another break. So they keep hitting me.. And I keep getting sicker. Im not quite sure how I'm managing to do so much walking and activities on this vacay... It's pure will power at this point. I don't want to let my wife down (oh yeah guys.. I got married and this is my honeymoon).

So I'm hoping when I get back the chemo will make me stable again. If not... well.. my time gets shorter. I'll probably end up in a trial of some sort at that point. My only hope right now is that I buy enough time that a new treatment comes out that will buy me more time until maybe they find a cure. Or big pharma releases their hidden cure, those bastards. All I know is that I'm too fucking young to die from god damn colorectal cancer. Even though my chances for living another 3 years is in the single digits, I'm not gonna let it take me that easy. I'll keep on walking and talking as long as I possibly can. Honestly, I hate fucking cancer phrases like "fighting on" and "warrior" and shit like that that makes non-cancer people feel better about us getting the crap beat out of us by this disease, but I guess that's what I'll try to do.

And I promise I'll post more when I get home. Unless I get killed in a plane crash. Which would be a fucking hoot. And sorry for the typos, writing on this tablet is brutal.

[trotsky]

13. Thank you for checking in, Evo.

Blotsky misses you a lot. *BURP*

[muriel_volestrangler]

14. If you can't take a break from chemo for your honeymoon, then when can you?

All the best to you and your wife - and I hope there's a treatment out there, for you and other people.

[onager]

15. Thanks for checking in, and great to hear from you.

Uh...no, I'm pretty sure the word "laziness" doesn't apply in this case.

And if I had any problems, they certainly just got put into perspective.

Your comments about "cancer phrases" sound like Barbara Ehrenreich's great rants on the subject. Sounds like you could do some great rants of your own, and I look forward to them if you have time.

[Evoman]

16. ha

As Arugula Latte can confirm, a lot of the time I'm a ball of misery and dissent from the "cancer happiness industry". If I'm hurting or having a rough time mentally, I'll post about it and if someone complains I'm not a happy little cancer patient, I'll tell them to go fuck themselves. I frequently rant that people try to make us cancer victims lessons for the well people and asked to inspire them. Again, fuck you...I could give a rats ass if I inspire people and make them feel happy about this horrid piece of shit disease. If I'm miserable, then I'm miserable.. I'm not gonna pretend I'm happy or, more perversely, grateful for the cancer. In some ways it has made me a better person.. I'm probably less of an asshole and more patient... but I'd go back to being a non cancer jerk off in a second if given the chance. The pain and sickness isn't worth it.

And all my friend and family know better than to call me brave, or tell me to be a fighter. I lost it on my dad after he told me I needed to think more positively. He knows better than to do that again. I'm not convinced in the least in the magical powers of positive thinking. In fact, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna die. I hold out some hope.. If I didn't, it would be hard to get out of bed. But being aware that I'm probably going to die in the next couple of years let's me spend time I'm not sick trying to enjoy the time I have left. If the cancer sips responding to the chemo then I'm done with it.

I'm not quite ready to die yet. That's why I keep up the treatment. But I'm telling you I'm getting close to the edge where it isn't worth it.

On edit: also, weirdly enough, video games keep me going. There are too many games I want to play or finish to die yet. I want to at least play Star Citizen before I go, so I have to postpone my death to Q1 of 2016.

[uriel1972]

17. Hey Evoman...

Glad to see you're still around. I saw an Evoman in SWGEmu a while ago in the solo group I was in and it got me to wondering. Hope you can be around for a while longer, but I hear you about being close to the edge. The whole positivity industry makes me want to puke. A bucket of crap, by any other name, still stinks.

[Arugula Latte]

18. That "always keep a positive attitude!" stuff puts way too much pressure on sick/hurt people

and makes it seem like if they don't recover it's their fault for not being all sunshine and roses 24/7 when life hands them a shit sandwich.