mopinko
mopinko's Journalhow's everybody in here?
how is the plague treating you?
for some reason karma has been raining blessings on me till i'm about to drown.
doing my best to pass them on.
you?
greetings.
sooooo. in the midst of all this trouble, karma has damn near drown me in blessings, and i just could no longer deny.
a friend who has a dd looked me in the face, and said w/o words that i am a buddhist. then he said the word, and i said-i know that is true.
i am struggling w the duty that comes w blessings, but i am doing my best.
namaste.
there's one kind of magical thinking
i always had trouble shooting down.
karma
really my problem was that people who seemed very good had a lot of bad things happen to them.
they say they are getting what they deserve from a past life. i don’t really believe in that either.
but after pissing on me mostly, she has clearly decided to smile on me now.
not only am i having a great spring, this little farm of mine has become a haven for my neighbors.
seems like every time i look out my back window there is a family at my back gate talking to my chickens.
my plant sale sold out for the first time ever. i can’t keep up w the demand for eggs.
i could go on. fences are being mended w folks who had a beef w me like they were never there.
so yeah. karma is real folks.
this is very bad news for some in my life.
but i couldn’t stop her if i wanted to.
all i can say on whether or not i deserve it is that in my past life i was a very good dog. which is kinda funny as that has long been my wish for my next life if there is such a thing.
or maybe if profiting from desecrating an ancient burial ground gets you the ammityville horror, building a garden on an angel’s playground gets this. i dunno.
but till further notice, karma lives and appears to be on my side. you
i sent this message to some of my meatspace peeps today.
dear fellow weirdos and malcontents.
if you have been paying attention, you must be wondering if i have lost my mind. i have tried to show that what has happened is that i have switched on my brain.
some of you feel you cant trust my explanation for this, to whom i say, there is the door. some of you wonder if you can believe me. to you i say- dont. prove it to yourself.
i'm only sending this to my mj using friends. what i think has happened is that i found a level of mmj that has effectively treated an old brain injury. you cant find it on an mri. over the last 10 years of so the best brains have been trying to understand all this, and the more i read, the more i was sure that this was me.
in the early days of brain research, docs looked at brains that had a hole punched in them, and mapped out what was broken and what still worked.
there is a little koan that docs, esp brain docs, find inscrutable- how can the human mind understand the human brain. my answer is- from the inside out.
instead of measuring the holes in old brains, find a brain that had a small injury early in development.
if you are interested in seeing if i am on the right track, i will share what happened to me in a little more detail- i swore that edibles had no effect on me, but i figured maybe it just wasnt enough, so i upped it until i felt like it was having an impact. that turned out to be about 4x what most people use.
if you want to see for yourself, will you try upping your dose for a week, and let me know what happens?
welp, when i got invited to put some old work in an anniversary show,
and it was the last straw. i had to make more art.
now i have been invited, by the big kahuna at woman made gallery, to submit my most epic work because it is a perfect fit for an upcoming show. technically has to be juried in, but this one cant miss.
my friend saw it when i did it.
she was awed at the time, but like my link the other day showed, all my volunteer hours didnt get me past many juries.
hell, even the annual members show, which the 2 clay pieces got into. i got turned down a half dozen times.
funny how thing turn out.
eta link https://www.facebook.com/120776091304700/photos/a.120777147971261/528550880527217/?type=3&theater
so, if you google me, you will get hits.
most are my first gen trolls from the hood. i usually also google mopinko, so i can have a laugh at the trolls.
this gallery, where i was on the board might pop up, mostly in credits for funders.
but i got to chatting w the retired director/founder, and was on the site, and wondered what pics there were there.
hope you enjoy.
https://womanmade.org/?s=mo+cahill&post_type=product
yesterday
i had never heard of this movie, but bumped into it surfing, and was hooked from the title screen.
what a fun movie. what a clever story. and those songs.
plot- a grocery store clerk/musician's old guitar is destroyed, and his friends get him a new one.
they say- play us a song.
so he starts to play 'yesterday'
none of them had ever heard it before, and start raving about it. "did you write that?" "what? no the beatles wrote that." "who's the beatles?"
he goes home and googles- the beatles. he gets a page full of insects.
the whole sequence is good. he tries several other search terms, and gets those bugs over and over.
so he figures if no one every heard of the beatles, i'm just gonna play their music, and if anyone is stupid enough to believe he wrote it, that's on them.
hilarity ensues as the world discovers the beatles. in one man, all at once.
the criticism that he gets along the way nearly killed me it was so spot on. anyone who was ever in a creative partnership of any kind knows those convos.
kathryn mckinnon plays his manager. she is just razor sharp.
def worth a watch.
12. everything has split between then and now.
there will be no new normal.
only a new tomorrow.
and in that timeline, these fuckers get launched into the sun.
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thought this reply deserved it's little place in the sun.
i dont just love old movies, old movies are my refuge.
my marriage broke up in january, and i spent so much of that feb sucking up '30 days of oscar'.
the thing about tcm is that they give you so much background not just on the stars but the whole art of movie making. i learned a term- a bit of business.
i watch them these days, and i finally see just what they mean by that.
some movies i just chuckle at those little "bits"
those great, polished little pearls of dialogue. the different lighting styles of different directors. the costumes. the looks on the actors faces. the fedoras and the ties in film noir.
i have a real love for the old titles. as a graphic designer, i know that they did that stuff by hand, and made those type styles themselves showed me just how much goes into a movie.
i have really come to appreciate these little bits.
i used to want to go to grad school for film. way back in the day, when columbia was a cheaper little upstart across mich ave from my school, saic, their claim to fame was their film school, and i thought many times about crossing the street, or at least going there after i got a bfa.
that never happened. i didnt get to study it in a classroom.
but, thanks so much tcm for everything you have taught me about this amazing art form.
and in the end, guess what? all education is self education. you get to put letters after your name because you spent the requisite number of hours w your butt in their chairs, and paid them big bucks for the privilege. it has nothing to do w what you have learned in life, let alone what your talents are.
if they actually counted "hours", like they say, i should have more that the puny little aa and cd that i have to show for a lifetime of educating myself.
it's a good thing that is all i really care about.
prove i'm wrong-
some say necessity is the mother of invention, but i think her name is serendipity.
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