Sitting in my house
Avoiding covid 19
Cat sneezed on me,eewww.

I am human and humans are a mix of good and bad.

I get angry sometimes.I express it in my own way, I have no desire to pretend what I feel is wrong.

I have spent many years tolerating the intolerable.
Biting my tounge and denying and stuffing away my emotions and thoughts that were not nice.

There is a purpose to anger ,sarcasm and the things that offend some people.

I think karma is horseshit.
It's definitely dis-empowering.

And I have no desire to be a saint.
Most people are not saints.

Yes I am happy when a repug dies.
This is because I hate fascism,I hate narcissists authoritarians and sociopaths. I think they are dangerous to others and to life itself. I have been very traumatized by the sort of monsters in christinazi churches and the republican party.

I cannot love what cannot be shamed and seeks my destruction.

I will not waste my empathy on people who have none.

I feel happy when a evil person with ice water in their veins ,and they really do exist,dies or is incapacitated. That way the harm they do is negated,finally.

The request to be nice take the high road ,has led to a sort of solipsism about people that does not mesh with how people really are. It can cause harm.

Sometimes you need to say what you say. Sometimes the truth hurts. Sometimes it's cathartic.
One person's negative words can be healing and cathartic even if they are not nice twords a person.
No one has a right to tell me how I should feel or think.

I do not play nice with people who seek my or my allies ruin.
Playing nice caused how many republican administration's where our rights,democracy,this country was harmed and plundered?
So sometimes,it's ok to not be nice.

I do not share the belief in karma or that there is some metaphysical punishment for not being nice.

I treat others as they treat me.

I extend my hand in friendship if you bite my hand, I am under no obligation to not punch you for biting me .

Trump admits republicans would never be elected if voting expanded.
Talk about a minority tyranny.



https://www.commondreams.org/news/2020/03/30/saying-quiet-part-very-loud-trump-admits-youd-never-have-republican-elected-country

Leads me to wonder if this may be where we are headed if republicans insist..

This corrupt psychopath ogliarchy will never stop abusing or step aside for the good of the people.

They will not do thier constitutional duty to provide for the general welfare of the American people..

They are narcissitic authoritarian and sociopathic they have no insight and do not care about others. They are a gang of greedy bullies who's motto is me first fuck everyone else..

They won't stop this inhuman shit until they are dead. They won't be reasoned with,they ignore facts and are all too eager to sacrifice other people's lives to enrich themselves.


Trump is a murderer,denying states the help they need unless they kiss his huge gelatinous ass.


I think trump and his kind will provoke revolution or worse eventually,because they'll never care,never grow up,and never will have any introspection or growth.

They benifiet from this abuse of power and they'll never stop abusing this country until the day they die. They thrive on death abuse control and chaos. They want people to bow down,submit to them like slaves.

Our founding fathers would be appalled.

The ogliarchy has worn out thier welcome in this country and have caused grave harm. . Maybe they should be sacrificed for the safety of the American people. Just sayin.

Just some thoughts on this intractable situation that does not have to stay intractable. Citizens arrest? Or ???

Day in day out I am at my apartment alone. Can't see my therapist because I don't have the net, can't afford it because Verizon has a monopoly at my apartment complex.

I feel as though I am fading.

I spend time on du, I have the TV on to give the feel I am not alone.
I have lost motivation. It's really hard.
Wish I could sleep until this is all over.

It's not like I went out much before the quarentine. I had a few friends stop by and hang out. But not anymore.

It sucks to be alone like this .

Wish I had enough money to actually afford the net and cable and a decent computer.

So at least I could see my therapist.

And don't file tax returns you either get a smaller check or nothing.

Why is it the poorest always get left out.

Panther's Asian Indian scallops.


6 sea scallops.
Pat of butter and olive oil to coat pan.
1/8 tsp tumeric
1/2 tsp tropical soy vey
soy sauce.
Black pepper small pinch.
Small pinch garlic and onion powder
1/8 tsp Japanese7 spice
1 tsp truvia fake brown sugar.
Or real brown sugar if you're not diabetic.
Small dash of red pepper flakes.
1/3 tsp. Fennel seeds
Sesame seed.
A tiny bit of water. Like 1/2 shotglass full.

Thaw scallops under running water.

Add fennel, roast in the oil mixture.
Add in water,tumeric and other spices and scallops *except for red pepper flakes and additional sesame seeds.*
Add soy sauce.
Cook down until water almost dissapears.
Add brown sugar truvia and sprinkle it on scallops and turn scallops.
Add the hot pepper flakes
And the sesame seeds
Cook until sauce is carmelized on the edges of the scallops and scallops are pale yellow..

I had this with pan seared
Brussel sprouts mixed together with skinny green beans with butter and olive oil,garlic and onion powder and black pepper.

And..

Stevia sweetened cucumber apple vingar salad.

It turned out surprisingly good.
I had to share it.

Sociopath is an enemy of humanity
An enemy of compassion,of generosity of all the things that make humanity humane.

To work on my sewing skills. Want to beef them up so I can start making masks. Want to make straight tight seams and sew down thin strips of elastic correctly. And fix the tension on my machine again.Once I get better with all that, I'll look for a good mask pattern and get sewing. Probably going to make 2 layers the outside of the mask will be pillowcase type material,on the inside will be T Shirt material. Dunno how much material I'm saving up already allocated for projects..some I have I know hasn't been allocated. Gotta dig out my fabric box and see how much I have.

Thanks to DU for the post about making masks.

A simple phrase to use on magats.