So sorry to hear You're going thru this!

Please don't think about what "he needs"..
What do YOU need? YOU.
When I was going through major depression, at my lowest, I had a Vision, a flash of InSight.. what would I do, if I were the Mother of a Woman going through that depression? I did THAT.. I "mothered" mySelf, NURTURED mySelf.
Took a while, & had to check mySelf, OFTEN. But I made it to the Healing process, & I BELIEVE..
YOU will, too. BELIEVE IT.💖