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ck4829

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56. I'm sorry. Someone has to be vile, I am finding out where I lie, finding out how to be horrible
Sun Mar 17, 2019, 09:14 PM
Mar 2019

I'm watching my personal beliefs and personal philosophical values get turned into ad hominem attacks and conspiracy theories by the other party, by white nationalists, by this administration for a while and so this has been boiling up inside of me. It exploded.

I went too far, but it's clear I have to be that vile, horrible person. Not all of us can be nice and sweet, I am willing to be that person who screams in ears. And yet I find I am lashing out at people who would probably be my allies, and it's not necessarily political, I actually made a grown man cry out in the 'real world' just the other day, mind you they harassed one of my coworkers. And here I am, I feel like their suffering and dying is depersonalized and just put out in the world for display, like they didn't matter.

And I'm coming from a special place in another way though, I've semi-adopted a young Somali woman, and every time I hear or see news about this, I think about her. And that's not even mentioning the fact that I almost married a Muslim woman a long time ago, she still holds a very special place in my heart, and then to see them called invaders when they are of the two of the sweetest and strongest women in my life. It's made it worse, to see this gaslighting and psychological manipulation of my political and philosophical beliefs, now they go after people I love? No.

You do what you have to do, I'll do what I have to do. But it starts here, the pushback against this poison, this virus starts today. I will have to temper how I act, and redirect it. Because I am finding out I am getting a lot done...

Just one of the things I am doing is working on a project somewhere else, there wasn't a thing on white nationalist terrorism until today, I've added hundreds of pages and including code words and sundown towns, it's being called an "incident" according to the administrators, hopefully it will remain. I think it's a better and smarter use of my time than being angry at fellow DUers.

I want to be horrible, but I need to be horrible at the right people. And that wasn't you.

+1 nitpicker Mar 2019 #1
At this point though... ck4829 Mar 2019 #3
Just say no to death porn. (n/t) Iggo Mar 2019 #2
Thank you, and I add it's not censorship to have this video be made illegal ck4829 Mar 2019 #4
Can we avoid the Newspeak please? localroger Mar 2019 #35
It's not Newspeak. Hekate Mar 2019 #41
The word censorship means what it means. Mariana Mar 2019 #42
I don't know. Blue_true Mar 2019 #53
Post removed Post removed Mar 2019 #5
"Virtue signaling"? 2016 called, it wants that lame right wing smear back. ck4829 Mar 2019 #6
It's not a left/right issue pintobean Mar 2019 #7
So in other words... ck4829 Mar 2019 #10
From the BBC nitpicker Mar 2019 #8
I think that the people who commit acts like this and LuvNewcastle Mar 2019 #9
I wouldn't watch even if I came across a link which I have not. I can't SammyWinstonJack Mar 2019 #11
I have no desire to watch snuff porn... Raster Mar 2019 #12
I have to disagree entirely CTAtheist Mar 2019 #13
If it's out of curiousity and when it was breaking news, that's one thing ck4829 Mar 2019 #14
You're wrong, per my original statement. Nothing more to add. -nt CTAtheist Mar 2019 #15
Cool, thanks for stopping the rationalizng ck4829 Mar 2019 #16
It's not rationalizing CTAtheist Mar 2019 #17
What happened to "Nothing more to add"? ck4829 Mar 2019 #20
You're entitled to your opinion. CTAtheist Mar 2019 #21
And that's what I said in the end... ck4829 Mar 2019 #23
That's fair. CTAtheist Mar 2019 #27
I'm "prejudging". And do you think I care about that? ck4829 Mar 2019 #29
How far would you take that line of thought? (reply to #29, not #27) Rainbow Droid Mar 2019 #33
I am completely aware of what I am saying ck4829 Mar 2019 #34
I have done everything to avoid even seeing a link UpInArms Mar 2019 #25
OGMAFB. There is ONE survival tip for situations like this. Dave Starsky Mar 2019 #36
That is exactly what happened. SQUEE Mar 2019 #37
50 human beings... now just 6 "tips" ck4829 Mar 2019 #38
I never said any of those things. SQUEE Mar 2019 #45
I'm sorry. Someone has to be vile, I am finding out where I lie, finding out how to be horrible ck4829 Mar 2019 #56
Can you share them here? cwydro Mar 2019 #40
And that's what so many people do when they're caught with child porn ck4829 Mar 2019 #39
Poor people. Fricken hateful son of a bitch. Chin music Mar 2019 #18
One big reason to not watch it exboyfil Mar 2019 #19
True and there's also a major distinction in the Till case ck4829 Mar 2019 #22
Americans are so desensitized to violence redstatebluegirl Mar 2019 #24
I have no interest in watching malaise Mar 2019 #26
I know where it is, would never in a million years dewsgirl Mar 2019 #28
K&R stonecutter357 Mar 2019 #30
I have seen posters here admit that they watched it. Appalling. Tipperary Mar 2019 #31
I'm just horrified ck4829 Mar 2019 #32
I have to disagree flotsam Mar 2019 #43
Basically agree. Turin_C3PO Mar 2019 #44
Sort of like a train wreck - it's horrible, yet people can't turn away. backscatter712 Mar 2019 #46
I am surprised how many people here dumbcat Mar 2019 #47
It's a snuff film canetoad Mar 2019 #48
I may be totally wrong, Cold War Spook Mar 2019 #49
I flat out refuse to watch it. Initech Mar 2019 #50
No one is forced to watch it. PoindexterOglethorpe Mar 2019 #51
I have seen the idea treestar Mar 2019 #52
+1... ADX Mar 2019 #54
In some ways, I think we should MAKE people watch it. bitterross Mar 2019 #55
I watched it. It came up on my Twitter tl minutes into the attack Arazi Mar 2019 #57
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