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In reply to the discussion: It's disgusting how people are just freely admitting they watched 'the video' [View all]ck4829
(34,905 posts)I'm watching my personal beliefs and personal philosophical values get turned into ad hominem attacks and conspiracy theories by the other party, by white nationalists, by this administration for a while and so this has been boiling up inside of me. It exploded.
I went too far, but it's clear I have to be that vile, horrible person. Not all of us can be nice and sweet, I am willing to be that person who screams in ears. And yet I find I am lashing out at people who would probably be my allies, and it's not necessarily political, I actually made a grown man cry out in the 'real world' just the other day, mind you they harassed one of my coworkers. And here I am, I feel like their suffering and dying is depersonalized and just put out in the world for display, like they didn't matter.
And I'm coming from a special place in another way though, I've semi-adopted a young Somali woman, and every time I hear or see news about this, I think about her. And that's not even mentioning the fact that I almost married a Muslim woman a long time ago, she still holds a very special place in my heart, and then to see them called invaders when they are of the two of the sweetest and strongest women in my life. It's made it worse, to see this gaslighting and psychological manipulation of my political and philosophical beliefs, now they go after people I love? No.
You do what you have to do, I'll do what I have to do. But it starts here, the pushback against this poison, this virus starts today. I will have to temper how I act, and redirect it. Because I am finding out I am getting a lot done...
Just one of the things I am doing is working on a project somewhere else, there wasn't a thing on white nationalist terrorism until today, I've added hundreds of pages and including code words and sundown towns, it's being called an "incident" according to the administrators, hopefully it will remain. I think it's a better and smarter use of my time than being angry at fellow DUers.
I want to be horrible, but I need to be horrible at the right people. And that wasn't you.