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Melinda

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3. Oh Peggy, this is one of the most difficult things I've ever done in my life...

Tue Oct 30, 2012, 02:39 AM

Oct 2012

I've lived a life of self-loathing, thinking that somehow it's all been MY fault... years of therapy, but it's only now that I am ripping the veil off these dark secrets and sharing with my family, and friends, and with strangers here and now, on DU, but oh! So much shame and hurt and pain and pain and pain... I am terrified every day.

I am brave right now though. Tonight I am open.

Thank you for your kindness, Peggy.

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Hi! I’m a rapist. I’m one of those men who likes to force myself on women without their consent..... [View all] Melinda Oct 2012 OP

Thank you for sharing this, Melinda... CaliforniaPeggy Oct 2012 #1

Oh Peggy, this is one of the most difficult things I've ever done in my life... Melinda Oct 2012 #3

... CaliforniaPeggy Oct 2012 #4

Oh my God ismnotwasm Oct 2012 #24

Very powerful, very dark, and very courageous.. Permanut Oct 2012 #2

Thank you Permanut. I centered my life on my son, thinking that I could make something beautiful... Melinda Oct 2012 #5

... Permanut Oct 2012 #6

Oh Melinda sheshe2 Oct 2012 #7

sheshe, you're a lovely soul, thank you. Melinda Oct 2012 #15

So let's send the GOP back into the darkness where they belong! sheshe2 Oct 2012 #16

Thank you for posting this Melinda. Very powerful indeed. I admire and deeply respect your strength. anneboleyn Oct 2012 #28

Thank you for sharing. Behind the Aegis Oct 2012 #8

I struggled for years about sharing the circumstances of his conception with my son... Melinda Oct 2012 #17

wow. how incredibly powerful... powerfully sad, powerfully persuasive, powerfully real renate Oct 2012 #9

I've only recently become acquainted with John Scalzi's writings... Melinda Oct 2012 #18

I can't begin to understand how your experience affected you... bluesbassman Oct 2012 #10

It may sound perverse, in that I wish all men could understand how sexual violence Melinda Oct 2012 #21

No, not perverse. The world would be a much different place if more men understood. bluesbassman Oct 2012 #22

***tears*** Melinda Oct 2012 #23

I have often wondered... davidthegnome Oct 2012 #11

David, thank you. Melinda Nov 2012 #31

"I like to remind them how little control they have." Spitfire of ATJ Oct 2012 #12

Thank you for sharing this azurnoir Oct 2012 #13

Thank you, azunoir. Melinda Nov 2012 #33

Wow, Melinda, it must have taken a lot of strength for you to write that. Zalatix Oct 2012 #14

I think I could be a case study for PTSD, Zalatix. Melinda Nov 2012 #34

I've said it before and I'll say it again: I really think the people who are trying to justify rape. Initech Oct 2012 #19

That's an interesting posit. Melinda Nov 2012 #35

Posted to BuzzFlash WilliamPitt Oct 2012 #20

Thank you for sharing Scalzi's writing, Will. You ensure a far greater viewing than I ever could. Melinda Nov 2012 #36

Reading that was like a punch to the chest. lilithsrevenge12 Oct 2012 #25

Thank you lilithsrevenge. Melinda Nov 2012 #37

A friend wondered if the R's were going for the rapists' vote duhneece Oct 2012 #26

Hi Melinda~~ DonRedwood Oct 2012 #27

To everyone who has replied to me so far... Melinda Oct 2012 #29

You are such a Lovely woman! Caretha Oct 2012 #30

Kicking, reccing, and re-posting on FB for my daughter lapislzi Nov 2012 #32