I touched on it downthread a bit...I actually was an early bloomer, and was a D cup by age 15 (although I was probably bigger than that, D was all I could find in the stores at the time). So, I was thin with giant boobs....I was harassed constantly at school, at work...everywhere. I got so sick and tired of it by the time I was 20 and with my now-ex that I think I also gained as subconscious protection. And I think my ex liked it too because it kept other guys' eyes off of me, so he encouraged it. And once you gain it, it's that much more difficult to lose it. But like you, I find peace in being fat. And yeah, I do feel safer, too.