it's not even about being accepted, or not, by other people.

Sometimes it's about something as simple as being able to cut one's own toenails.

My Pipi won't do it for me. I can hardly bend over to do it myself. I had to buy a Dremel so I could grind them down. Even then, they end up growing so long they get caught on my socks. They're ingrown (curling in on themselves through my toe skin). I went to a podiatrist once to have them done. My insurance paid that one time, but won't pay again since I'm not diabetic, and that's $50 per visit.

So I grind away, and it takes 30 minutes for each foot because I'm doing contortions.

Bathroom hygiene? I'm not even going to go into details there...


I don't like being fat. I don't eat a whole lot...my problem is that I don't move enough. Hard to do when every bone and muscle is screaming in pain, but I try.


I see other people who weigh more than I do and honestly wonder how in the hell they deal with the same issues...