Ryan Freel Commits Suicide: REPORTS

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21. Years ago, my sister committed suicide.

She did it with pills and booze. After years, I look at it realistically. Had my sister lived she would have bankrupted my mother and possibly all of us. The doctors she was seeing were HMO quality and approximate crap. Before she went bonkers, my sister used to convey to us the message that amost immediately after she told a doctor a pill was making her feel bad, the doctor would change it, and she could no longer stand the transitions. She finally couldn't take it and ended her life. For her, in her circumstance, it was the RIGHT thing to do, I now believe. In a country where medical doctors are getting poorer and poorer I can totally understand someone committing suicide. I hear about potential suicides from my diabetic website daily. I don't say as much as I used to. I offer alternatives; I say things will get better; I make specific suggestions about what might work... All these were the same things I was doing when I was working the SHN Suicide Hotline, which I stopped once WEBMD bought them. Less and less seems to work anymore. And a large part of that seems to be Quality of Life issues. The suicider seems to be saying "Can life get better if I DON"T commit suicide?" I still answer "Yes, it can." But I am not as convinced any longer that is probable. And maybe, God, or whatever comes next, may understand more given the way things are, and not hold a person's last decision against them.