I took Boudicca to the vet, this morning, full expecting to bring her home in a cremation box

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8. I was there last August

my poor kitty had heart disease and heart lymphoma. the steroids could slow down the latter but trigger the former.

No other can had ever left the hospital after such a duo diagnosis. Pretty rare to even have them both actually, we are talking about a couple of dozen in the literature.

She came home for a good solid week of being her old self, but then the steroids triggered her, and it was time.

I don't think I have ever cried so hard about anything in my life.

I feel where you are at now.

My only advice is love on your kitty as much as you can...and when she passed I went crying and red eyed to the shelter and got a kitten.

It really helped with the grief and pain. It distracted me by giving me a new little one to care for and love.

I still miss Stormy, and see her ashes in a box every day, but my new cat brings me a lot of love and affection and a little annoyance lol just like Stormy did.