except that I'm a volunteer and as much as they want to hire me, it's becoming apparent they're never going to be able to afford me. (I'm willing to take 30K (w/o benefits), the going rate for someone with my skillset is 50% higher than that (w/benefits), they're probably only going to be able to swing $18K starting in February.) This would work for half-time but they monopolize my time.
The woman I've been dating non-monogamously (negotiated polyamory) has decided that no longer works for her and wants to change the parameters of our relationship. Despite the fact that I'm not actually sleeping with anybody else currently/recently (the past 6 months) nor do I want to, this parameter-change is a deal-breaker because I'm simply not interested in settling down with her or anybody ever. I prize my freedom and autonomy too much; I like that I never have to apprise anybody of the details of my life or share my bathroom or plan for future children or get married. I like that I'm free to get up tomorrow and decide that I'm leaving to climb Everest. I like that we have our own spaces. I like being the only person who has a say on decor. I like my life separate from hers. I don't want one "together". There is no "we". I also don't want to be alone so I'll probably capitulate...then be miserable and destroy the relationship.
One of my best friends is getting married and due to life-circumstance, I may have to skip the wedding due to finances and the fact he couldn't choose a transit-accessible church or reception site.
I came to the stark realization last night during a 2 hour phone conversation that another best friend, one I never took a chance on and whom I strongly encouraged to date her current L/T boyfriend (she's my former "work-wife"
, may actually be my perfect match. I love her but I'm not sure its in that way.
My ankles itch. I scratch them but they don't stop itching. It's not athlete's foot, I already Lamasil'ed the shit out of them for 3 days.
...that's just some of my personal problems. I got 99 problems.
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