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bif

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10. Thank you for sharing your thoughts
Wed Aug 28, 2019, 07:49 AM
Aug 2019

A lot to digest. As you mentioned, I am and have always been quite active. I've only avoided a few events over the past year. It's not so much that they're triggering events. I guess it's just situations that I've never felt totally comfortable in. Usually parties where I don't know most of the people. Drinking made me a bit more comfortable there. I now can use the drinking issue as an excuse for not going. My wife is perfectly happy going by herself.

I did have an "aha" moment a month or so ago. I only drank in the evenings because I enjoyed the buzz. Typically, I would start while making dinner, and keep on until I got tired and went to bed early. 10 or 10:30. If I watched a movie or read a book, I'd completely forget how they turned out in the morning. So I was sitting at a Starbucks, sipping coffee and people watching. My wife was working late so I had some time to kill. Then I went home and had dinner and painted for a few hours. I thought to myself, "Hey, the old me would have gone home and wasted the entire evening. This is so much better. Life is good!"

Life is indeed good and much too short to waste it in a fog.

Thanks again for listening to me ramble on, and thanks for your comments/observations.

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