This mastectomy thing is a breeze!

[PennyK]

7. I feel great, but...

It's definitely strange to look at myself as I am now. I will have to wait for reconstruction (which I'm definitely having), because I will be on blood thinners until my port comes out in a year, and my plastic surgeon wants to wait until then.
I can see that even with a soft bra and a fiberfill form in it, looser tops, and probably with sleeves, will be my best bets. Once I get my drain removed and everything heals, I can look into a better booblet...they sell weighted ones, and bras with pockets to hold it...or I can sew in a tricot pocket or strap myself.
One thing I didn't mention is that unlike most women, I hated my breasts for most of my life. I developed early, and they were big, too big for my happiness. I had always felt that they were the first thing anyone who looked at me saw, and I was sick of feeling that way...which is why I had reduction two years ago. I was wearing a 40D minimizer, and after reduction, I was 38B. So, maybe, it wasn't as hard for me to lose one like this as it would be for most women...but the hollow between my armpit and the breast area looks scary. I wasn't expecting that. Just looking at myself, and seeing nothing there, is very, very strange. As strange as having a skimpy crewcut has been for the past five months.
I WILL get used to it, and I will be fine.