but what was at the bottom of my issues was my physical health.
finally figured out i have sjogrens. 4 rheumies missed it, cuz it is usually just a minor annoyance, and i was a wreck. the signs were all there, tho.
usually it is dry eyes and mouth. i passed the 'tear test', where they put a piece of filter paper under your lower eyelid and if your tears get to the end of it, you dont have it. but my eyes are sensitive to blue light, and this office had fluorescent lights.
but my teeth tell the tale. receding gums. cracking teeth.

it is aggravated by viruses and pregnancies. 6 pregnancies, one a horrendous miscarriage, likely twins, and i lost 1 of a pair of identical twin boys.
all the viruses, starting w measles, chickenpox and roseola by age 2. had west nile in '02, which is when i fell off a cliff.

docs can be rly stupid, and you have to advocate for yourself. and never stop digging.
i was motivated by the fact that my youngest is a mess as well. this affected her. it can damage a fetus, and she has that kind of damage. she was always sick. and tiny.

so, you have to take care of yourself, and no one knows your body like you.
so, take care of yourself. k?