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hunter

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36. It's a PTSD thing with me. As an adult I don't think I've ever felt secure in my person or place.

Mon Jan 10, 2022, 08:46 AM

Jan 2022

Intellectually I know that's not true, but I can't ever get that feeling out of my gut.

Whenever I'm not doing well the first thing that flies out the window is my ability to judge my own mental state.

The terror is real.

My life's somewhat a mess at the moment but every day I try to do a few positive things.

I'm recognizing it's time again to spin the roulette wheel of psych meds again and see where the ball lands. And I'll take that recognition as evidence I've still got a handle on things.

Alas, I got up just before 3:00 AM this morning 'cause the wheels in my head won't stop turning, and most of the voices rattling around in there are as cold and as dark as the long winter night.

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Does anyone here have chaos in their environment? [View all] XanaDUer2 Jan 2022 OP

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It's a PTSD thing with me. As an adult I don't think I've ever felt secure in my person or place. hunter Jan 2022 #36

OMG, Yes! whathehell Jan 2022 #37

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