Major Depressive Disorder: a quick personal summary

[hunter]

10. The anti-meds people haven't had to deal with me "off my meds..."

I think they'd change their tune pretty quick if they had to live with me.

I'll never be able to apologize enough to family, friends, and housemates who've seen me at my worst.

Whenever I tell crazy college roommate stories, I'm the crazy college roommate.

The times I've quit meds, it's because I didn't like the side effects or I was feeling dull.

I think I'm over the "mind-over-matter, you can power through this, turn that frown upside down, natural remedies" stages of denial, but one never knows.

For me, one of the first things that flies out the window when things are going wrong in my head is my ability to judge my own mental state. I'm also pretty good at acting as if I'm together, even when I'm not, because, after all, I've got about forty years experience doing that. (Things started going sideways in my head in adolescence...)

I'm not especially enjoying my current meds, but I'd rather avoid finding myself in the psych ward again.