Keep ye the faith

[davsand]

5. Rick, do you REALLY feel that sad to see some of these changes?

I was struck by that one phrase, "It's sad; we have to let it go." I could not tell--was that an acknowledgment of everybody's angst and fear at the idea of ANY sort of change? I can't say I'd miss the NRA too much should they melt down and run away. I'm pretty sure that if the GOP could maybe moderate their wing-nut factions' impact we'd all feel a lot better. Come to think of it--I'm pretty sure our nation as a whole would be a lot better off if our politics took a turn toward civility and service to the people. It'd be nice if we'd quit shooting at each other and if we'd all figure out that we are, in fact, all related, and (Hoo boy!) wouldn't it be mighty cool to live in a time when all the different religions quit bickering and focused, instead, on helping us all find our own divinity

I have to admit that I'm a "plodder" a lot of the time. I keep on keeping on, and I've let fear of the unknown chain me into all kinds of unhappy things in my life. I've always assumed that everybody was that way to some degree. It's only been in the last couple years that I was willing to go out on a little limb--and even THAT has felt pretty strange at times. I've made progress, but I know there is more change ahead for me. The really BIG change has been that I'm even willing to take these steps--make these changes voluntarily. I am not only making changes, but I'm (dare I tempt fate by saying this?) happy about it!

I still get nervous at the idea that come June One my current term will end and I'm gonna go someplace different to work every day--and that is in spite of the realization that I will not be unemployed. I have got ways to earn a living and that doesn't keep me on edge. Fear of the unknown keeps me on edge, and even that is nowhere near the anxiety that it would have been a couple of years ago..

I've worked to transition that office as much as possible because I know full well that I am not gonna be there any more. Dunno for sure WHERE I am gonna be, but it won't be there. I'm not leaving anything or anyone hanging, I'm not stomping out, I'm just DONE.

I can't begin to tell you how amazingly good it feels to be able to say that. I'm DONE. I'm done, I'm done, I'm DONE!!!! Heck yeah! I. Am. DONE. It is like getting out of jail, falling in love, getting laid, having a baby, and eating a huge dinner without any calories. It is a sunrise with a glass of Dom.

I only wonder why I held on so long.

I also wonder if maybe once this is all past us maybe the world as a whole will look at this time and wonder why we ALL held on for so long...

Love you!




Laura