☦️ I'm not feeling all that well for a time now and don't know how to change that.

[No Vested Interest]

33. Your situation is so very understandable.

Faith and spirituality - I've concluded that there is much we can not and will not understand in our lifetimes. Much is beyond human understanding. I've decided not to try too hard to figure it all out, but to accept that we have chosen this way of life and that I still receive much joy and consolation from being involved in my faith structure and will continue to practice when able.

I've recently decided that I must try for 8 hrs sleep per night, and not try to get by on 7. Difficult because I'm a night owl, and phone sometimes rings early (for me) in the morning. Sleep has been a problem for years, though I don't dwell on problems (usually). I imagine putting problems up on a shelf for the night, saying I will take them down and address them again tomorrow, if I must.

As a widow and senior adult, I need to have a mission in my remaining years. In my case, my adult daughter handicapped by a stroke and living in a long-term facility is very dependent emotionally on me, so much so that I fear for the time when I won't be available for her. I believe we all need a personal mission in different periods of our lives, and hope that you have identified yours. It does give you the will to go on each day, to push out of bed or chair and accomplish at least a little each day.

We'll talk more another day. Peace to you today and tonight.