Hello my friends. I am having real trouble with Christmas. [View all]

[Paper Roses]

This season was, for my family, a season of great celebration and gift giving.
Since my husband died, it has changed. At least for me. I has been four years and it has gotten worse.

I no longer look forward to the season. We used to shop together, wrap together and generally do all those preparations for Christmas things that were usual to us.
Now, I don't find any joy is what I have to do alone.
The family has decided to do a Secret Santa so it is one adult to buy for.

My grandchildren are getting older so it is hard to choose something for then.
I cannot get myself to put up a big tree. I am alone now so I got a small tabletop tree and decorated it. This was more for the benefit of family.

All our old ornaments are still in the attic. I don't even want to bring the boxes down.
I feel like a Scrooge because I have had to cut back on presents for all. This was a family choice but it makes me sad that we have come to this.

I hope for all of you in this group, a Happy and Merry Christmas. I hope your Christmas is full of joy and happiness.