Aversion, suffering and breathing it in.

[Amaril]

1. Thank you for this post.

I too have been suffering due to financial woes -- I recently took on a part-time job (in addition to the VERY stressful full-time job I already have) and while this will eventually have a positive effect on my financial situation, it is causing additional stress because my full time job is so demanding (it's not unusual for me to put in 70 hours a week) and I don't have as much time to devote to it now, so my caseload isn't as well managed / organized as I like it to be. Aversion is no longer working. I wake up in a full on panic most mornings, if I've even managed to sleep through the night to begin with. I am terrified, waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'm exhausted. My hair is falling out. If I don't find a way to alleviate some of this stress soon, it is going to -- literally -- kill me.

Just reading your post & taking a moment to do as you suggest -- allowing myself to be in the present moment, immersing myself in the situation that is causing me so much anguish & fear instead of trying to run from it as fast & as far as I can -- I felt at least one of the kinks in my neck give way.

I really needed this today.