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Wed Jan 21, 2015, 06:48 AM

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When I was in my early 20s, I made my living as a pornographer. For more than five years, my working life revolved around framing acts of public copulation. Iíve pushed cameras and microphones into dwellings no machines should ever go. Iíve been granted a front-row seat to scenes of startling intimacy. Iíve helped pick up thousands of used baby-wipes. Somewhere along the line, I gained a financial stability that, in light of the rather limited artistic scope of the movies I helped produce, I probably didnít deserve.

But after half a decade of the sex grind, I decided to call it quits. For despite having entered the smut leagues with the very best of intentions, the vast majority of the porn I ended up shooting was not ďsex-positiveĒ in character. Instead, the sex I found myself videotaping was of the Gonzo variety: the kind of scenes that are harshly lit, reek of a basement in the San Fernando Valley, and inevitably wind up devoured and forgotten in 15 minutes. If my ďcareerĒ as a director is notable in any way, itís that Iíve played for both sidesówhich is to say, while Iíve shot hundreds of hetero scenes, Iíve shot almost as many in gay porn.

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Though gay and straight porn may appear distinct from one another mostly due to the various orifices which receive the majority of the cameraís gaze, for me, the most important difference was that they felt governed by subtly different moral tenets.

Letís begin with straight porn; for thatís where I began. I got into porn as a horny 23-year-old Jewish kid, hoping to stare at and hopefully score with curvy women who didnít see a roll in the hay as too absurd a way to make their rent. Perhaps I was blessed with an excessively literal mind, but I quite simply imagined that the best way for me to live out my sexual fantasies was to, well, join the sex industry itself. It was not to be so simple, I soon discovered: many a man had shared my same dream. A good job was hard to come by, but after months of crushing disappointments, I finally landed a mildly lucrative gig shooting camera for a website. Understandably, I was psyched.

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