Reply #117: It's not too much to wake up happy for whatever the day brings

[babydollhead]

without AD my marriage would be over, my kids would be petrified of me and I would have killed myself. I had aggrivated depression, where you are pissed off all the time and sometimes moved to rage and fury. I never stopped thinking, "I'm going to die here", like a gong.
I knew it worked when my five year old peed on the couch in his sleep and my first thought was, "What a tired boy!" instead of "mother fucker!! why did you do this to me?!?"...
I didn't want to raise my children as a madwoman. What I mean is I know what it is to see red. I also know that they could pickle my brain in Zoloft and my husband would STILL be an asshole. I just don't take his assholiness personally.