You are viewing an obsolete version of the DU website which is no longer
supported by the Administrators.
Visit
The New DU.
I am so happy ! I am going home for the first time since March 2001
[View All]
BelleCarolinaPeridot
(1000+ posts)
Send PM |
Profile |
Ignore
|
Mon Dec-08-03 10:42 AM
Original message |
I am so happy ! I am going home for the first time since March 2001 |
|
Edited on Mon Dec-08-03 10:46 AM by CarolinaPeridot
I want to share something :
After nearly 3 years in Germany I am returning home . I should feel happy but at the same time I am sad . I have grown up here ( mentally I have grown up ). I posted a couple of weeks ago about finding a flight and etc . Well I found one - on Sunday I will be heading home to American soil for the first time since March 2001 . The world and the country (USA) has changed so much that time and so have I - how much would I have to bite my tongue against the repugs ? .I am not sure how I am going to handle all the Freepers on a daily basis . I am surely going to miss the real news that I get here in Germany compared to FOX and Co .
I have been doing some packing already and I came across some songwritings of mine that I started in the beginning of 2001 and I see how much I have grown mentally . Every song was about me against the world and typical ramblings of a 20 year old and I no longer think that way anymore ... I am only 23 now by the way - but coming over here has opened my eyes up in a way that I have never imagined . I think everyone should live in a foreign country if they have the change because sometimes you have to get out of the picture to see the " true " picture .
I ran away from the States because I was going through depression after a rough time at college . I was really thinking about suicide or leaving the States in 2001 ( I needed somewhere to think out my life basically ) ... I am of course going to miss my boyfriend of 4 years - we had our fights ( i bled and so did he ) but I have to come home now . But now I feel so much stronger now and I feel that " its time for me to come home ". ( I am talking opportunity wise) I finally have the strength to register for college again . I fought off panic attacks on my own . I am no longer depressed and I am so happy for that . I am so proud that I can stand in public without running away ! Yay is me ! And I know know now that things happy for a reason in life ... if never became depressed I would not have learned the things that I know now .
This sounds sappy but I really look forward to posting more on the DU during 2004 . I don't post as much now ( just in Lounge of course )in the GD because I really am a quiet person and I am not as wity as everyone else . Before I found the DU , I thought I was alone in my Bush Bashing . I thought I was the only one who could read between the lines . Everyone here is great and I pray that each of you find the strength to do whatever you can to get Bush out of office in 2004 - I am EXTREMELY looking forward to volunteering at the campaign headquarters in my area of NC .
And if I am not online to say it : Season's Greetings to everyone !
|
Powered by DCForum+ Version 1.1 Copyright 1997-2002 DCScripts.com
Software has been extensively modified by the DU administrators
Important Notices: By participating on this discussion
board, visitors agree to abide by the rules outlined on our Rules
page. Messages posted on the Democratic Underground Discussion Forums are the
opinions of the individuals who post them, and do not necessarily represent
the opinions of Democratic Underground, LLC.